Her Saving Grace

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

It's Friday night and Bonnie, Elena, Caroline and I are piled up in the Salvatore study with pillows and sleeping bags. Damon thought it would be funny to get us wire rods and marshmallows for the fire. Little did he know, that was something we were planning for anyway. We had the chocolate bars and the graham crackers to go with it. "You ladies have all you need?" Stefan asked as he and Damon stood in the doorway. "Yep. I think we do. But no listening in guys. Please?" I asked and they both nodded. "Promise?" I asked. Damon came to me and kisses my lips softly and says "We promise. Have fun. We will be upstairs if you need us." Damon pulls away and they leave the study.

"Okay. Now, what is going on with you and Damon?" Caroline asked. "What's going on with you and my brother?" I asked. She smiled and said, "We are officially together. He told me he loves me." she says "Now, spill." I laugh and say, "Okay. I don't know what is happening. Since the attack, I couldn't sleep but when I am with him, it's like my brain pushes it aside for a little while and I can sleep. I told him what happened." I tell them. "What?" Bonnie and Elena asked at the same time. At this point, the only ones that knew what happened were Caroline and Matty. "He has been helping me a lot. Right after I met him, he took me to the clearing where it happened. He had a picnic set up and we just looked up at the stars and talked. He told me that I needed to face these things and I guess changing my perception of the physical details helps me face it. I was able to be there in that clearing and not have a panic attack. While we were there, Damon kissed me. Now I think about that place and all I see is him kissing me, not my attack. Then we took a walk after I moved in here and I told him what happened. There's something about him that just makes me feel like everything will be okay." I tell them. They all look at me with smiles and I asked "What?" Caroline is the one to speak up and says "You guys are together." I look at her like she is crazy. "Care, we are not. Why would he want to be with someone that's damaged like me." I look down at the marshmallow that I am tearing up before putting it down. "You are not damaged. You were attacked and you are still standing. You are strong and if he didn't want to be with you, he wouldn't be having you live here and being there for you." Bonnie said. "Maybe." I shrug. "No maybe to it. Let me ask this. Have you thought about what it would be like to be with him? Being intimate?" Elena asked and I said "Yeah. I have." Caroline smiles and says "That means, you are healing and that you trust him. Are you going to let him if he makes a move? You know he won't push you." I blush a little and say "I think so." They all smile and pull me into a group hug. We spend the rest of the night talking before falling asleep at 4am.

I wake up to the sound of people talking. Opening my eyes, I smell bacon and eggs so I get out of the sleeping bag and head to the kitchen to see Damon and Stefan cooking all of us breakfast. I sit at the island and Damon comes over and asks "How'd you sleep?" I smiled at him and said "Good, actually." He kisses my lips softly before placing a cup of coffee in front of me. I can't believe I slept all night, alone, and didn't have a nightmare. Could I be getting better? We decide that we are all going to the Grill for a while and Damon doesn't leave my side. Once we leave there, everyone heads home and I go back to the boarding house with Damon. We shower and get into bed and he says "I have a confession." I look at him and he says "I did listen a little bit." I look at him shocked and he says "I just checked in here and there to make sure you were okay." I release the breath I was holding and snuggle into his side a little more. "It's okay. I'm glad you did. But what all did you hear?" I asked. "I heard what the girls asked you about if I were to make a move." I tensed when he said that. Kissing me softly, he lays me back and is hovering over me. "I won't do anything you don't want me to do. You tell me when to stop." he says and he starts kissing down my neck. A few minutes later, we are both undressed and he looks at me, asking permission and I nod my head yes. He slowly enters me and slowly and passionately makes love to me. There was nothing rough or fast about it. It was perfect. Once we both reach our releases, he pulls me into his side and says "You were never damaged and sweetheart, I consider us together. You are mine as much as I am yours." he kisses the top of my head and I drift off to sleep in Damon's arms. I feel the power that I thought that I lost has now been taken back all because of the man holding me.