"Why are there so many misconceptions about girls having guys as friends? Guys are so much nicer than girls, none of that hair-pulling, back-stabbing, table-flipping drama to deal with. Don't get me wrong, I definitely fantasise about having a more-than-a-guy-friend one day, but none of the guys I hang around with, no way...that's just gross."- signed January 6th 2018.
A few months later and I am genuinely confused as to how I thought that way. It's September 2nd 2018 and I start school again tomorrow and I am really torn between five guys.
I lay in bed tonight staring at my ceiling wishing that someone would just lay next to me. Not even a partner, just another lost soul wandering through the universe - I just need someone to dream with. I just want someone to cross paths with me, just one human to walk into my life and never leave, one human that's mine. I hope someday to find that connection.
As my thoughts start trailing off I think of the boys in my life, secretly questioning their husband material:
Cedric for example. He isn't my first love for no reason, surely? I didn't stare longingly at him for 3 years for nothing, right? He truly is the most intelligent boy I have ever had the pleasure to copy from in class. He is also the most protective. He doesn't think I realise how close he holds me, but trust me, it doesn't go unnoticed.
Ron. Now Ron was the first boy to ever really notice me. As an unfortunate looking child, who do I look for in loving circumstances? Oh of course, because I'm the most problematic person I've ever met I HAD to fall secretly in love with my best friends brother. I swear i'm not delusional but he actually liked me too, or at least he led me to believe he did. But with a friendship like mine and Ginny's there was zero chance of us ever working out, that's what I think anyway.
OOOO switching up the age a bit, look at me winning over an older boy. Oliver really is the gentlest giant. His hugs have no competitors either. I met him in second year- him in third of course. He was my tutor in potions- I think i even heard Snape say "you can't fake that sort of chemistry."
Draco and Neville are really quite similar- yet so different at the same time. Everyone knew it was me and them, we were the best of friends. I met Draco through Harry 2 years ago, we all sat together in our first year of Defence Against the Dark Arts, I stared at Harry whilst Draco stared at me. I only found out a year later that he actually liked me, if only I knew. Now Neville is a different story, Neville has been with me through and through, he has been my main source of support over the past year. I met him when we were sat alphabetically in Charms class. I made fun of him being messy and in a weak attempt to insult me he called me "perfect" which then led to me correcting him "perfectionist." and since then we've been inseparable.
It's time to get some sleep, school tomorrow and I have to hide my blushes over all of these boys. It's going to be exhausting!
Sincerely Signed,
Darla Lewis.
