I ___ you

December

Jackson and I had been seeing each other for a month when he asked me to be his girlfriend in October. We've now been together for two months and practically inseparable but not in an over possessive way.

"Grace" he says into my mouth in between breaths as he kisses me.

"Hmm" I reply. He reaches down to the edge of my shirt and tries to pull it off of me.

I practically jump off of him and yell "WHAT THE HELL".

"What, you don't want to fuck me?" He asks.

"Well not right now I don't. We're so young to be doing that."

"Whatever" he says as he rolls over to lay on his bed. I walk out after grabbing my phone and head home. It's a pretty short walk to and from our houses. I get home and immediately go to sleep.

The next day is my birthday and even though he knows that, I didn't even get a text from him. I did however get a text from Henry, Harry, and Tommy saying happy birthday.

A whole week went by and I still heard nothing from him. As Im about to text him I get a call from Henry. He sounds panicked as he tells me I need to come over right now.

I ask Anika for a ride and get over there. Henry is waiting at the door when I get there. "I'm so sorry" he says.

"For what?" I ask.

"Just open the first door" he instructs. When I walk in the basement I hear a strange noise coming from the room. I open the door to find Addison on top of Harry. I gasp and slam the door shut. I run back up and hope Anika's still outside. She is and I basically beg her to take me home.

I get a called by Jackson ever half hour for the whole rest of the day. He calls again at midnight and I decide to answer.

"Gracie" he barely manages a whisper.

"Don't call me that" I snap. Only my closest friends and family are allowed to call me that. He usually calls me that but I won't let him, not now.

"I'm sorry" he croaks. I can tell he's been crying and on the verge of tears. I switch the call to video and turn my camera on. He accepts the switch and turns his camera on. He looks terrible, like he's sick. His eyes are red and swollen and he looks like he hasn't slept in days even though it's still day as what happened.

"I don't even know what to say" I admit. I really don't and there isn't anything I can do about it.

"Please forgive me?" He begs.

"I don't know how you expect me to forgive you, you slept with Addison" I say.

"I know I did and I will never do anything like that again. I was just upset that you wouldn't fuck me so I found someone that would" he says. Somehow his words make me feel at fault.

"I'm sorry" I say.

"I forgive you" He starts, "will you forgive me?"

"Of course" I say. I feel so guilty for making him upset. He just looks so sad and I don't want him to be sad.