Falling for the wrong guy

Chapter 5

On Sunday morning everything happened as normal. As if it was a normal day, not that it wasn't a normal day, a lot had happened the day before that you would have expected to have carried on, but it didn't. It was fresh start like when you fall out with your friends and when you make up you agree to forget about everything that had happened. Only we didn't agree or discuss to forget about everything we just did.
I wanted to be annoyed at myself for what I had done, how selfish I was to even think about letting Matt come in my room.I could have stopped him before things got worse but I didn't, I let it happen. I didn't even think it threw, what he was about to do, but I couldn't blame myself, to some extent it wasn't entirely my fault. I felt that I couldn't have stopped him so there was nothing I could be angry with. The only thing I was sure about was that I absolutely hated Matt and there was no way I would be speaking to him again. How could he just think he could ruin everything? He was selfish and I had had enough.

My dad didn't ask me anymore questions and my brother didn't bother me, the house situation wasn't brought up so it was all fine. Everything went smoothly for one last day, only I was unaware of that.

Jake rang later on and promised me that he would take me out. He told me that he was around and his revision could wait, I believed him this time.
You would have thought that you would have been scared to face him, scared to lie about everything that had happened, but I wasn't, not one tiny bit. Like when I said me and my family had all chosen to forget everything, it was like everything that happened had been taken away from my memory. I didn't worry about what had happened and how it could change everything. I just knew that I would avoid Matt.
So when I finished talking to Jake it felt as if nothing else had happened. And that was the way it was going to stay.

Just like Jake said he turned up at 17:00 dead on. My dad got the door as usual but Jake just waited downstairs for me.
When I was ready I went down and Jake was talking to my brother, Jake and my brother got along well. Thomas, my brother, went to a different school to me and Jake. He went to a school half an hour away because he was "special".
Thomas had always been more clever than me but I never thought that would mean he had a different school to me.
School was tough for me I didn't think "properly" my teachers had told me when I was younger, that was until they found out I needed help. I had dyslexia, I wasn't dyslexic because that't not who I am, its what I've got so its a part of me and not all of me. Thats also why I wasn't in Jake's classes.
Jake was clever too so Thomas and Jake would just talk all technical so I never really understood but I never really minded.
I asked Jake where we were going but he told me it was a surprise and I was happy with that, if anyone knew me it was Jake so he would take me somewhere cool. It was dark so I wasn't quite sure what to expect when we started to walk towards the park. I carried on and didn't ask any questions because I knew it would be hopeless.
By the time we got to the park it was pitch black and only 17:30. I had no clue what we were going to be doing but I let him lead me.
He reached over to me and held my hand tight.
When we got to the bench we stopped and he sat down. I sat next to him with our hands still tightly together. He brushed his thick blond hair back.
"I thought we could go star gazing." It was so cold you could see little clouds of his breath as he spoke.
"Yeah, that sounds great."
He pushed my hair behind my ears and then placed his hand in the pouch of his grey hoodie. He kissed my forehead as he stood up.

By the time we had got to the top of the hill I was shivering all over.
So just like on our first date Jake pulled off his hoodie and handed it to me. I pulled it over my head and down to my waist.

Me and Jake had always been friends but we never saw each other outside of school. Then one day he asked me if I wanted to go out with him for the day. So I went.
He took me out for lunch then to a fair in town. It was getting late so he offered to walk me home.
As we were walking it was getting cold and we stopped at a bench. He pulled off his hoodie and handed it me. When he turned to face me his blue eyes sparkled in the darkness as he picked up both my hands with his.
"Was this a date?" I asked.
"Well only if you wanted it to be."
"Yeah, I do."

We never really had a chat about 'being together' but everyone just assumed we were so I guess we did too.

Jake sat down and so did I. He placed his head onto the grass and smiled up at me. He closed his eyes as I placed my head next to his. We were there for what felt like days but when I looked at my phone it only turned out to have been minutes.