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Tears

April 5th

Today is the day, Jeongin has to talk with Beomgyu. He has to be honest, tell him the truth of how he's been feeling lately and maybe also talk with Chan, being honest is the best thing he can do at this point. Even though the elder didn't call him the night before like he promised, he can't wait to hear him again.

He's currently outside of Beomgyu's place, he knocks hesitant, nervous and kinda feeling like throwing up. How's he suppose to feel good if he's about to tell his boyfriend, who he's been for a whole damn year, that he's having feelings for someone else?

Worst than that, he's not even sure if he loves his boyfriend.

"Oh, Innie" Jeongin blinks quickly and looks up.

"Yeonjunnie hyung!" he greets the male, who looks like just woke up.

"Gyu is in his room" Yeonjun smiles and moves a bit to let the younger come in "Jeongin"

The named boy looks back again, "Yeah?"

"I really hope you can solve whatever is going on" he gives one last comforting smile to the shorter boy and pats his shoulder "Remember that your happiness is important too"

Jeongin gulps, "Yes, hyung" he only nods.

When he opens the door of the room, Beomgyu is sitting down on his bed with his laptop, typing on it, glasses on and a frown on his face. He looks concentrated.

"Hi" Jeongin says getting inside and closing the door behind him. Beomgyu looks up, a small smile forming on his lips.

"Hey" he types something else, clicks and closes his computer "You can sit down wherever you feel comfortable" he adds standing up to place the device on his desk.

Jeongin sits down on the bed, "Do you have a lot of homework?"

"Hm?" Beomgyu turns around a bit distracted "Oh, yeah, a bit" he chuckles and sits down next to Jeongin "But it's okay"

"You sure I'm not interrupting?"

"Never, baby" Beomgyu smiles "Can I.." he gulps "Can I give you a kiss on the cheek?"

"What?" Jeongin arches an eyebrow confused "Yeah, of course"

Beomgyu leans to kiss the soft cheek for a few seconds, "I didn't know if I could"

"Gyu" Jeongin's eyes soften "You're my boyfriend, why do you mean?" his left hand lands on the male's cheek.

"Innie" Beomgyu sighs "I'm not dumb" the look on his face is heartbreaking, he's visibly hurt "I saw the way you looked at Chan hyung in the hallway the other day"

Jeongin freezes.

"Please tell me" the elder's eyes start to water "Please be honest. I won't hate you or judge or anything, just tell me"

"Gyummie" Jeongin's eyes water too.

"Please" his voice cracks.

"C-Chan hyung became my babysitter when I turned 11 until I was 14" the younger calmly starts "I-I" he takes a deep breath "I fell in love with him" Beomgyu nods, waiting for him to continue "H-He was my f-first kiss and when he left.."

There's silence for a second.

"I was heartbroken" Jeongin starts to tear up more.

"Oh, baby" Beomgyu softly caresses his boyfriend's back "You were happy when you saw him again, right?"