Reason 50 // m.c

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Giovanna's POV

''You know, Gio, you can't stay here forever. You've gotta go back and talk to them all sooner or later.'' Kara tries to persuade me.

Kara has been nice enough to let me stay with her at her apartment for the past few days and it's been alright.

Kara has been really nice and all but it's just, without the boys and Michael, I've been feeling really depressed and sad.

I mean the apartment itself is gorgeous and very well decorated but it just seems to be missing.. everyone.

In all honesty, I've missed the boys and Emma and Stella. Emma and Stella especially. They didn't just become a part of my life, they basically are my life and without seeing them everyday or at least talking to them makes me feel so sad and empty.

I feel really bad for just leaving them, all, but after hearing Emma say to just ''forget me'' when I left the house hurt me, considering she is one of the nicest people ever, so obviously if she said something like that and MEANT it probably means that they are all mad at me and wouldn't like me back ''home'', I guess.

''I know that and of course, I wanna talk to them sooner but you saw how they all were when we left. They all looked so mad and I don't think I can go back to them. They'll probably just yell at me and be mad forever so I'd much rather leave it and move on.'' I try to say as sweetly as I can.

''Come on, Gio. You really can't stay. I mean, wow, that sounded mean but you've gotta go back or at least call them and talk. It's the least you could do considering you just walked out on them.''

''Do you not want me here? I mean, I can leave if you want, I can find another place to stay at.'' I quickly say.

''Don't you dare change the subject, and of course I want you here!'' Kara starts,

''It's just that you can't run from your problems. That's all you've been doing and now it's gotta stop. You're either gonna call them yourself or I will and force you to talk to them.'' Kara pleads.

''Please just talk to them. Confront them. Call Emma and Stella and tell them what's going on because they're you're best friends and if you don't talk to them soon, you might lose them forever.'' Kara adds on.

''Alright, fine. Can I use your phone?'' I give in.

''Ahh, that's the spirit. And yeah, it's on the kitchen island.''

I quickly get up and go to grab it.

As soon as I walk into the kitchen, I see a cutting board with a knife and her phone right next to it.

Then all of the bad memories that I've been holding back come back to me.

~Flashback~

I sit on the bathroom floor with a blade in my hand and tears streaming down my face.

''Giovanna Rose, get the fuck out of the bathroom before I come in there and force you out!'' Bryan yells through the door.

''Bryan just leave me alone! For God's fucking sake, just leave me alone for once. Just one minute alone, please!'' I yell.

"Please Gio, I love you."  Bryan says and I laugh slilently.

"You don't. If I do this, it means this is one step closer to you not having to fake being in love with me." I say coldly.

So I do it.

I take the giant leap to what I once thought was my goal.

~Flashback Over~