Here Without You (Jayy Von Monroe) (Sequel)

prologue

"Ms. Hampton has passed away," 

It feels like all the oxygen has left your body, although you can breathe. 

You're drowning, although the only water is from your eyes. 

You scream, but no noise leaves your mouth. 

Your sobs go unnoticed, your tears dissolve into thin air, and the pain you feel suddenly becomes a state of living that you can't escape, it's tainted everything that once was sane. 

"Jayy?" Dahvie whispers 

I don't know how I managed to pull over the car. 

"My god Jayy, what the hell is making you shake?!" He demands, hand touching my shoulder

Dahvie faces me, and I don't know what to say, what to do. 

I just became a single father of a baby. 

"Jayy what the hell is going on? Talk to me!" 

I'm speechless, and I feel his arms wrap around me while I scream and sob into his chest. 

"Jayy," He pulls away 

This isn't fair.

I've lost my baby. 

I've lost the love of my life forever. 

Never getting her back.

There's no hoping she'll wake up, that this was all a dream, no hoping for reconciliation. 

Nothing involving Essie. 

"Essie...Essie's dead," I pull on my hair and bite my tongue, trying to hold in my screams 

"I've lost my Essie," 

Dahvie stares at me in disbelief, tears filling his eyes. He looks down at his lap, before he covers his face and lets out a strangled sob.

"We've lost our Essie," 

There will be no more nagging about not having peanut butter, no more her getting sad about ASPCA commericals, no more kisses goodnight and kisses goodmorning. 

Nothing.

"Fuck," I sob 

I get out of the car, walking away from it as I collapse onto the concrete of the road.

"SHE'S FUCKING GONE!" 

She's gone. The angel who I found at the mall. I'm left with our only child. 

Ember. Is she alright? 

"I've lost them...." I sob, punching the ground, not caring about the pain that hits me. 

I jump back to my feet, getting into the car and starting it up. Dahvie stares at my in confusion as I speed off to the hospital.

"Jayy?" 

I have to be with her. 

Somehow. 

We have to stay together.

I have to see her. 

God she must've suffered. 

She died alone. 

"Jayy slow down we're gonna crash!" Dahvie screams 

"At least I'll be with her," I mumble, obliging to his demands 

I didn't want to lose him too.

"I can't believe this," Dahvie whimpers, "I just found my sister...and she was ripped away," 

My heart hurt for Dahvie. His only sister was now gone, leaving him alone. I grabbed his hand, giving it a squeeze as he bursts into tears again. 

"Who's gonna tell Amy and Josh?" 

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"We need to see Ecstacy Hampton," I say to the receptionist, who nods and clicks on her computer

A look of grief hits her, "She's in room 360. I will warn you, it is not a pretty sight," 

We ignore her warning, speeding to her room. My heart is pumping as I imagine what my beautiful love looks like. 

When we arrive, Dahvie is the first to go in. He lets out a sob as I follow him, and I can feel my body crumple.

There lays Ecstacy, blood streaking her legs and bruising on her once pregnant belly. Her face is pale, lips blue. Her hair is scattered, untamed. Her dress lay on the ground, and I pick it up, only to gag.

It's covered in her blood from the waist down. 

"She gave birth in that dress," A voice says behind us 

We turn around to see a doctor, "She's really gone, isn't she?" 

"Yes, I'm so sorry for your loss. But we do have good news," He sighs

"What is it?" 

"Who is the father of the baby she delivered?" He asks

I raise my hand, and he smiles, "Congratulations, would you like to see your daughter?" 

She was okay.