Here Without You (Jayy Von Monroe) (Sequel)

seven

(Jayy's POV) 

"@JayyVonMonroe: don't know how to handle this pain. I miss you so much @esctacymonroe," I tweet, tears flowing down my cheeks

I go through the replies, smiling at the fans. 

But then I came across a tweet that I considered.

"@badbloodxx: do drugs. always helps me." 

Drugs? Honestly, the only drug I've ever done was marjiuana. And I don't even consider that a real drug. I know when I do marijuana...all the pain I feel goes away. The only bad thing is the headaches you get afterwards. 

I sigh, texting someone I knew could hook me up.

Andy Goulding.

A few hours later, I'm sitting on Andy's couch, Andy handing me a packet of cocaine, "All you do is snort it," He replies, giving me a straw, "Dude, do you think you should be doing this?" 

"The pain of losing the only one I've ever loved is too hard to bear. This is worth it, just to have that moment of happiness," I reply, and Andy's face drops

"Oh Jayy," He sighs 

I ignore him, pouring the cocaine out and placing it in a straight line, putting the straw to my nose. 

3, 2, 1

I snorted the cocaine as fast as I could, groaning at the pain my nose felt as it went into my system. I made another line after taking a breather, snorting it up. Andy watched sorrowfully, smoking his cigarette. 

I repeated that process seven times.

I didn't care if I overdosed. 

I'd be happier dead than alive, cause I could be with Ecstacy. 

(Ecstacy's POV) 

"My baby is so beautiful," I whisper to myself, going through Dahvie's twitter to see all the baby pictures of Ember, "God I wish I had met you," 

The tears stream down my face, Harry glancing back at me, "Oh Essie," 

I start to sob, my shoulders shaking, "Why did I have to die?" I cry 

I feel his arms wrap around me, and I weep, "Boo, I don't know. Fate did this to you. It's not fair, it's not," He sighs

"I just want my baby," I sob 

"We're gonna find her, and return you, okay," Harry presses a kiss to my forehead, "Everything will be okay," 

"God, I hope you're right."

Yeah i know its short but I have alot of things going on right now, and I just needed to update. I'm sorry its short. Forgive me.

All the love,

Morgan xoxo