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I wake up and im standing over the sink. my whole body its soaking wet and theres blood on my clothes. the smell of cleaning bleach burns my nose. what did i do. I go out calling for my mom.," M..mom" I cant find nor hear her. I panic. where is she i look out of my bedroom window at the back of the house. In the darkness i see her walking towards the house, i didnt kill her. I then run out to her. she looks normal but something feels weird. but i dont think nothing of it its probably just nervousness. when i get to her i hug her and she hugs me back. then her clothes start to feel wet and sticky.and something drops on my head. I pull back only to see her covered in blood. blood soaking her hair,i then see the stab wounds on her head. she then grabs me by the shoulders hard opens her mouth in an unhuman way,"WAKEUP" she dissapears. and im alone.in the streets.i killed my mom.I did. I walk backwards.I killed her.I then turn and walk towarda the house. I killed her. I start to speed walk. I killed her. I start to run towards the house. the rain drops mask the tears running down my face as the same thought repeat in my head. I killed her.

when i get inside i lock the door and fall down and cry. hard. i cry and i cry and i cry. i cry so hard my stomach hurts. I then hear my alarm blaring up stairs and decide to not go to school. I slowly walk up the stairs and see the pictures on the wall of me and my mom. she was so happy. when i finally am upstairs i head t my room to get out of these clothes. and lay on my bed. i then fall asleep.

I wake up to hear knocking on the door. I put on my house shoes and go down the stairs. I look through the peephole and see its the boy that I bumped into during gym. he has a plastic bag full of stuff. I then open the door, " hey, what are you doing here"? I ask. "well i didnt see you when the bus came soo i got all of your work and got made you some soup cause i figured you were sick." he says with a shy smile.," umm can i come in?" I then move out the way to let him in and he sets the bag an the work on the table. He looks around then looks at me. he combs his fingers though his light curly brown hair. he then puts his hand in his pockets and then smiles and i see his dimple on his right cheek. "well I better get going see 'ya" " yeah see 'ya" then he leaves out the door.

i want him to stay. as the door closes behind him i open the soup and put it in the microwave.

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