Hit Me If You Want (feat.hit if you want me)

Stay with you

Clang!

As the doorbell rang out clear, surprised Taehyung dropped a razor blade from his shaking hand. Someone was shouting as banging on the door, ringing the doorbell frantically. "T...-hyung..! ㅡpe...-r!" He suddenly noticed the owner of the faint voice was jungkook.

Taehyung rushed and opened the door with a frown. "What the fuck.. Jungkook, it's midnight! Do you want me to get kicked out of here? And whay are you here now?!" 
"..." Jungkook entered his house without a single word.

Taehyung shut the door and chased him quickly. "I asked you, WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING HERE?"

Couldn't bear that jerk combing through his house anymore, Taehyung stopped him by grabbing his arm. "Yah! Are you deaf?"

When Taehyung's fingertips touched his muscular arm, Jungkook roughly pulled his left wrist toward him all of a sudden.

"What the fuck-"

"The cuts." Jungkook spoke slowly, in a low, suppressed voice. "I hoped you wouldn't do that." He whispered,
"(Why are you triggering me)".

"...What?" Taehyung was impossible to focus on his words. 

Jungkook's voice was scarcely audible, but it wasn't the point. His face was so close to him. Taehyung could see that long dark lashes blinking, red sensual lips quivering slightly and feel his feeble breath touched his face.

As he stared that dark brown eyes were glued to taehyung's wrist, where shallow cuts were placed, he frigidly withdrew his hand from his grasp. "Leave, Jungkook."

"Why?"

And that blunt word hit his breaking point.

"What do you mean fucking 'WHY'? The self harm thing? Or leaving? What are you asking for? You wonder why I'm doing this? Didn't you already know? My parents died. Isn't it already rumored?!" Taehyung vented his anger.

"I mean, why did you harm yourself. Did you want to follow your parents as they passed away?"

FUCKING JEON JUNGKOOK, he cursed.

"Is that all what you want to say? Jungkook, they died as you perfectly well know. Died before I- I tried to talk sincerely for the fucking first time! And I, don't, feel, ANYTHING! This isn't that kind of thing that fucking actors went blank breaking down so badly in drama- they aren't the same! You don't understand me...Ha! SO I cut myself. Wishing it'd bring me the guilt that I should've had! AM I INSANE? Tell me, what's wrong with me? Am I wrong?"

Tell me more, Jungkook thought to himself, speaking up. "Self harm won't solve anything, Taehyung."

I want to hear you, no, I need to, at least not to get hurt myself from this trigger.

"Do these cuts hurt you? Why can't I do that? Fuck Jeon Jungkook, Not every self harm wants to die, as now IT CAN HELP ME more than anything! Should I be a good kid? It JUST a flesh wound to relieve my stress!"

"Then you should've given up being sad, not cutting yourself."

"HOW COULD I?"

"Why couldn't you? You are desperate, because they were the only people you believed that one day they would not make you feel lonely. You are afraid because of the anxiety of being alone.
I can feel you, you and your loneliness from the beginning.

There's no need to be a good kid as you said.. If you're not sad, don't be a coward. Forget about it and do your thing. You should find someone to understand you instead of wasting time with tears and blood.."

"Y-you are insane. This is crazy. We shouldn't feel this way, Jungkook!"

"Why? It's not bad, taehyung, we didn't commit a crime.. The truth is, they left you, before you loved them enough to cry out when this happened. And it was nobody's fault."

Taehyung was desperate. But it was that he knew Jungkook was right and he had to accept it ultimately. Jungkook felt his inner conflict, cuz he had the same feelings before.

"I understand how you feel.. that's okay Taehyung, but promise me, DO NOT SELF HARM AGAIN."

"...." 

"Because it is very addictive."

Taehyung felt something weird as Jungkook suddenly gave a croaky voice, but he simply ignored the gut.

"Okay... But what if I get that urge again? Will you stop me again?" He asked tentatively.

"Sure, I'll be with you."

"Forever?"
"Promise you."

Taehyung didn't expect Jungkook would give him a positive answer. I'll be with you forever, that one sentence warmed his tender heart and lonely life that nobody else saw.