THE BATTERED WIFE

PROLUGE

Nakaupo lamang ako sa aking kama habang ginagamot ang aking mga pasa. He did it again, he hurt me again. 

Alam ko naman na galit sya sa akin dahil sapilitan lamang ang kasal na'to at alam ko din naman na hanggang ngayon may relasyon padin sila nang dati nyang nobya.

Kaya nga natatanong ko nalang ang sarili ko eh, kung mahirap ba talaga ako mahalin? I chuckle as I asked my own self with that ridiculous question.

“hmm, done” I told myself with a smile plastered in my face as I finished putting some ointment in my freshly bruise arm. 

I immediately went down just so I could start cooking for our dinner I know Andrius will come home late but at least he won't get hungry right?

As a walked downstairs, I stopped midway as I hear some weird sounds coming from the living room. I walked slowly making sure that I can't create any sound I mean who knows maybe theirs a thief there right? 

Habang dahan-dahan akong bumababa mas palakas nang palakas ang tunog na nang gagaling sa sala. Abot langit ang kaba ko sa isipang magnanakaw ang gumagawa nang ingay nayun wala pa naman akong kasama. 

Sampung hakbang nalang ay makakababa na ako pero mula dito ay natatanaw ko na sa kanan ang malaking sala.

At dahil sa takot na baka magnanakaw ang nasa may sala ay nag pasya nalamang akong pagmasdan ang sala nang hindi umaalis sa pwesto ko  agad akong tumingin sa kanan ko kung saan ang sala para makita kung ano o sino ang gumagawa nang ingay. 

At para akong binuhusan nang malamig na tubig habang ang puso ko nama'y parang tinurosok nang paulit-ulit sa nakita ko. 

It's not a thief who's making that weird sound, it's my husband and his mistress their- their having a sex in our living room and in our house. 

Parang nakalimutan ko na kung paano gumalaw, para akong para akong sinasakal habang nakatingin sa kanila. 

I legs turned into jelly while my tears are streaming down in my face. I can't handle this pain anymore.

“I-It hurts” I murmured to myself while covering my mouth so that they can't hear my painful sobs while my other hand if placed in my chest where my heart is located. 

“fuck I love you ahh~” My so called husband said while he's still banging inside that girl. 

And that's when I finally slapped by reality. My husband, my Andrius will never love me because as of now he is still and will be in love with his girlfriend. 

I wiped my tears while trying my very best to stand up but my legs are like jelly, I can't control them anymore. I bite my lower lip to stopped my sobs while I'm trying to crawled my way back in my bedroom. 

As I reach upstairs I began sobbing painfully but still making sure that my husband can't hear it. I tried standing again and luckily my legs are cooperating with me now.

Habang naglalakad ako nang dahan-dahan papasok sa aking kwarto, hindi ko na nakayanan pa. Agad akong pumunta sa banyo para doon umiyak at ilabas lahat nang sakit na nararamdaman ko. 

“M-maybe- maybe love is not all about butterflies m-maybe it's not always f-feeling happy and such” I told myself habang dahan-dahang umuupo sa malamig na sahig nang banyo ko.

My face is full of teats while I'm still sobbing painfully.
“G-god, I- I never been bad before right? I-I never ask anything before right? B-but why? why?”  I can't help it anymore. 

My cries and sobs became more desperate I then kneeled in that cold floor while gripping my chest where my heart is located. 

“G-god is it too m-much to ask? S-sabi ko lang naman po na s-sana sana mahalin din ako p-pabalik nung taong mahal ko, m-mahirap po ba yun?” 

I don't know what I'm doing anymore, all I know is that I'm in pain, I'm in so much pain that even I will make a scenery in my mind about him loving me is still not going to work. 

“L-Lord, p-p-please take this pain away, a-ayaw ko na po k-kunin nyo nalang po ako p-pagod na p-pagod na po ako ang sakit sakit na po”

I begged habang humahagulgul I begged god to stop the pain I beg him to take me away. 

I was about to go out of the toilet when I heard the door of my room opened. I covered my mouth to stop my sobs while I listened to the footsteps of the person who entered my room.

I sucked my own breath when someone knocked on my bathroom's door. I bite my lower lip harder while covering my mouth to stifle my sobs when I heard a voice, it's them. My husband and his girlfriend/mistress.

“Andrea are you there? Cook us some food my girlfriend is hungry.” Andrius said using his cold voice making me shiver . 

“Andrea.” He called my name again. I shook my head while locking my gaze to the door and praying to god if he could create some miracle to sent them away.

“Honey maybe she's out or something” Samatha, his girlfriend's voice filled my ears.

“Tss, wait let me call her” Bigla akong kinabahan sa narinig ko dali-dali kung kinapa ang bulsa ko nag babakasakaling tignan kung dala-dala ko ba cellphone ko pero hindi anun ang phone ko sa may kama ko baka makita nya baka malaman nya na nag tatago ako ayukong mabubugbog, lalakad na sana ako palabas nang muli kung marinig ang pangalan ni Samantha.

“No, just let her honey, hmm let's go to your room so that we could make love hmm” Nakagat ko ulit ang pang-ibabang labi ko nang marinig ko ang tinig ni Samantha. I shut my eyes tightly waiting for my husband's answer, hoping that he would decline her offer but his words shattered my heart into pieces. 

“Alright, I love you let's go.” Andrius answered making Samantha giggle.

As I heard their footsteps living my room, my tears stream down on my faced again. I punch my chest hoping that the pain would go away but it didn't. His angry voice, His harsh words every punch, every slap it's playing in my mind as if it's a movie.

I can't take it anymore. Lord if this is your way on telling me that maybe we are not really meant for each other then I would step down as his wife now. 

I wipe my tears as I gently pushed the door open. My cold and empty room filled my sight, my lips trembled as I put my things inside my luggage. I made sure that I brought the money that's hidden under my bed before I open my drawer to get the brown long envelope. 

I wiped my tears while trying my best not to cry loudly. With my trembling hand I signed the divorce paper.

I signed it not because I don't love him anymore, but because I, I want him to be free- free from me. 

A/N; EDIT EDIT LABLATS MWAAH.