Uneducated Submission

All For Love

Selfishness is not living  as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live...

-Oscar Wilde.

***Jaxon's P.O.V***

"So how has she been?", I ask Royalty as we head home from her doctor's appointment.

"She hasn't really been herself. It's almost been a week and she has barely spoken a word to me, barely eats anything, hardly moves. The only time she really moves is to use the bathroom.", she replied looking solemnly through the window.

I nodded entering into the campus grounds, "It's gonna take a toll on her. I mean how are you supposed to react to something like that?"

She shook her head, "I don't understand what's wrong with Laila, why she would do something like that, I just don't understand it how someone could do something like that".

"Love is a dangerous thing and Laila is a passionate and emotional woman.", I say at a lost for words.

It all seemed surreal, absurd even.  She was letting her jealousy and insecurities take control over her and it was hurting her and the people around her.

Exiting the car we head to the dorm rooms, "Are you gonna come visit her? Maybe she'll talk to you", Royalty posed as we entered her room.

I nodded following her.  Neveah was falling into a depressed state and although I understood why, I couldn't bare it.

It wasn't her fault Laila was like this.

"Jax?", Royalty called out.

"Yeah?"

"She's not here. Neveah isn't here", she said a panicked look on her face.

"What? Where could she have gone?", I said helping her search their dorm.

"I don't know but her phone's gone and her ca keys are still here so that means she's still on campus", she replied running a hand through her hair.

"Relax, Roy I'm sure wherever she is, she's fine. You don't need to put anymore stress on you and the baby", I tell her taking out my phone.

"I'll call her and see if I get an answer"

She nodded and sat down leaning her head back.

"I don't know what's going on anymore. What does Laila want with us?", she sighs frustrated.

"No answer", I tell her coming to stand beside her and rubbing her back soothingly.

"Where's Zane?', she asks.

"Meeting with his psychiatrist",.

She looks up at me, indifferently.

"I don't know what happened to you guys but whatever happened that night in the bathroom at least one good thing is going on now", I told her with a small smile.

 She nodded and stared around the room.

"We still have to find her, Jax".

I nod slowly wondering where she could have gone when it suddenly hits me. Neveah was never a woman to lay down and let anyone walk all over her. She was never a passive person and if I knew her she'd be exactly where I suspected.

"Come on lets go, Roy. I think I now where she is".

***Neveah's P.O.V***

Selfish. 

That's what she was. She was selfish. She cared only about her needs. Her wants, desires; her feelings.

I tried everyday to make sure she never felt abandoned, insecure. I went against my own best friend's wishes and warnings for her.

I did it all for her.

I couldn't take it anymore. It felt as though someone had reached into my chest and squeezed my heart until it was crushed and then ripped it out.

All I could keep asking myself was why? 

Why would she want to hurt Royalty so bad? Over what? A spoiled relationship?

She knew I loved her. I would do anything for her but it wasn't enough. It'd never be enough. She would always feel small in comparison to Royalty because she couldn't let go of the past, of the hurt.

But I couldn't take it anymore. The endless crying, hurting over her betrayal. She couldn't have cared about me or she'd have understood. She'd have realized I still had a life outside of us, a life outside of her. I couldn't just base my whole life around her. It wasn't how relationships work.

Healthy ones at least.

Sitting up I wipe the tears from my eyes and head to the shower. She wouldn't make me hurt anymore.

I couldn't, no wouldn't let her.

The cold water pelted my skin and it felt like reality had just hit me.

She was trying to kill  Royalty.

Kill her. Cold blooded murder.

Shock and betrayal coursed through my body.

Part of me wanted to help her, understand why. Let her know that I was still here for her, because as much as I tried to deny it over the past few days. I was still in love with Laila. 

But I also couldn't let her continue what she was doing. It was sick and wrong and she needed to get help. Mental help.
She was unstable.

But I wouldn't just yet. I had to talk to her first. To make her realize that everything i ever did was for her; us so that we could be happier. 

Exiting my room,I called her and told her to meet me at the park. 

I couldn't chance meeting her in private. With everything that was happening, if she tried something at least we'd be in public.

I couldn't take the chance now that I knew what she was capable of.

Walking down the hall, i exhale. Who would've ever thought that this was how everything would turn out. When I met her that first day she seemed so innocent, I couldn't help but feel this was my fault somehow.

I drove her to this.

I stopped and took a couple deep breaths. Maybe if I hadn't  spoken to he that night we wouldn't be in this predicament and Royalty wouldn't have to fear her or her baby's life, yet I still couldn't let them take her away. I needed her to realize and understand how much she hurt me, personally.

Turning the corner I feel as though someone was following me and pause looking around.

The hallways are clear and I figure it was just my nerves and proceed when I hear footsteps behind me.

The hallways were still clear and I cracked my knuckles listening for anything but it ws silent beside from a distant chatter.

Increasing my pace, I head for the exit when a pair of arms grab me from behind and pulls me back. I struggle in their hold and try to kick them but miss.

I go to scream but a cloth is placed over my mouth and nose and an aromatic almost ambrosial scent takes over my senses.

Black spots cloud my vision and my limbs suddenly feel heavy.

As I fall I see her face and panic instantly rises but I was unable to do anything but fall to the ground, lifeless.