Open emotions

Khamoshiyaan

Sana was still lost in the moment looking in sids deep eyes n the question he asked she didn't want to answer today
So she responded " I am tired and I need to sleep let's sleep please "
Sid understanding her state of mind n heart simply nods
Sana leans into him places her head on his chest and closes her eyes
Sid holds her close to him and closed his eyes n they both slept in warmth of each other the most blissful sleep in days
Next morning Sid woke up early n was admiring this new mature calm sana but he would exchange her anyway for his chirpy loud bold n cute Sana
Sana in her sleep pulls him closer to her again n nuzzles softly into his neck causing Sid to loose all his control n kiss her bad n he absolutely did that
Firstly she was lazy to respond but then they went too deep into each other caressing passionately n didn't leave each other's mouth till out of breath
Sid smiles n said " u always sweep the ground beneath n make me loose into you "
He felt in that one moment that they were never apart really
Sid announced " you are never leaving me now love enough of hide n seek can't do it anymore I feel miserable last few months u disconnected me without even telling me what hv I done wrong it's unbearable and I need to know what's going on in that little naughty brain of yours "
Sana looked away but sid cups her face and look into her eyes n asked in all honesty " no not this time sweetheart not happening no running away bcoz if it is so u wouldn't have stayed last night so whatever it is inside u has to be spilled on me I am waiting dear it's important to communicate silence is deadly "
Sana took a deep breath n stayed quite for few moments n walked to the glass window overlooking the city n sight was beautiful city looked all cleaned up due to last nites heavy rains n sun shone brighter seemed like her life has also got her sunshine back in him
She smiled n said " kuch khilayega pehle !"
The moment she said that he knew she is bk n was glad that he didn't loose her
Sid -" jo aap chahein madam "
Sana -" yaar all a punjabi needs to perk up in the morning is aloo parantha pickle n curd followed by chai "
Sid obliged her demands they enjoyed their meals catching up on regular things like how her dad passed away n she had the responsibility to handle the business n make it turn into a successful venture n shifting to Delhi while her mother stayed with her family in village only as she couldn't imagine herself leading a city life she tried to pursue n convince her but failed miserable as her mother declared herself misfit here in Delhi but she had to come n stay alone in the new city but her friend Shefali helped her out n meeti was already busy with her work n she was comparatively free and what she took as temporary now she enjoys it n loves her work
Sid was about to tell her about his career achievements but she surprised him by telling him that how closely she has kept a tab on all his screen presence n interviews n rumours included .Sid wanted to ask why she didn't reach out to him but held bk for now as he didn't want her to go in her cocoon again .
Sana realised that no matter what but being with him is comforting n peaceful
Sid ordered for clearance n they both sat on couch
Sid not able to hold it bk anymore asked " why did u kept me at a distance what stopped u from reaching out to me when all my calls n msgs were assuring enough that I am there I told u I want to be with you "
Sana hesitantly spoke " our worlds are.... are very different I cannot be part of ur world n u cannot leave your world for me "
Sid added " elaborate please "
Sana -" see I had responsibilities u had your peek of success n if we couldn't get time with each other slowly we would move apart anyhow I was scared to go through that separation process specially when I hv just lost a closed one n couldn't handle anymore ,then ur world is artificial nothing is real out there everyone is wearing masks n I can never imagine to be living that life with u "
Sid felt amazed n then awful listening to her unfiltered wisdom but also realised that she lost herself in the process of becoming someone else
He didn't want to feed her another lecture as knowing her she needs action no talks
So he patiently heard her and replied with " hmmmm. Ok" taking a deep breath n absorbed it all
He continued " as u hv already decided everything I have one last wish before I accept your decision ok I am here for a month n I have good amount of time let's try n take out time with each other n hv fun n create memories is it ok ?"
Alone Time with Sid she would bet her life fir that
Sid added " it will be only u n my work that would hv my whole attention promise " persuading her further
Sana smiled n nodded
Sid " ok great then done "
"Let's plan"