That's Us

After New Year's Eve

So the new year's Eve is totally gone.  I was planning about my graduation and homecoming ,and it's pretty obvious girls do find out their dates with whom they are going to the homecoming and also the party. But in my whole life ,I never really dated someone ,I know that is crazy ,but I never felt  for someone .
However,my life is going on like this and it was smooth untill now . I know it's not a big deal ,even though I don't have a date ,my brother can go. But still all of a sudden it's not feeling right.  I always wanted a high school relationship with whom I can grow ,but here in New York  , there's relationship like you meet a person ,do hangout for 1 week and that's it . It's over . Why do they even call it a relationship,that's just casual dates . Am I crazy or is this the whole system? I don't get it . I wish there was someone who would love me untill the end of time ,and know me from my grudges and grow with me with all the cuts and glaces just like how diamond sparkle after all of this . I wish I had a person  to be there for me the whole time .
But I guess that's all my dream,cause I already struggled mid school,high school and all . And whoever the person is written for my destiny didn't see these ,so I guess sometimes you just don't have things that you truly desire for .
And also I have stopped keeping  contact with Paula, God knows what he might be doing . But that man didn't even email me . I thought he can't get rid of the idea of mailing me constantly . But he did it .
Are men like this ? I might still have to think about the lesbian Option. But I can't even hold a conversation with females . Sometimes I even wonder if I'm a man or a woman . Well ,at least things are now in a slow surf . So I have the full right to play with my life now.  Let's do some adventure .
" Sweetie,can you come over here for a bit ?"
" Yeah ,mom "

Before I start telling about my mother ,
She is a generous woman in every possible way a parent can become . But she can't just agree with the idea of me not dating anyone else . And I'm pretty sure she is now calling me to meet some guy from the neighborhood .
" You called me mom ?"
" Yeah dear . Meet your new Piano teacher . Paula ,this is Rossie . Rossie ,this is Paula."

Holy shit . On this planet of 7 billion people ,my mother has to find out Paula to teach me piano . Why ? Why on earth did I ever speak about my interest of  piano ?

" Hi "

" Hi ,Rossie !"

Damn it ,he got brown eyes and he is just sitting on the sofa from where the sunray is hitting his eyes . This is not good . Mom told me to never look into guy's eyes directly. But that's like a pool of honey going on there ...

" So Rossie ,it is ?"

" Yeah "

Am I still feeling the spring blooms ?

" So you are graduating in a month ?"

" Yeah " .

" Yeah ,and we are already so  proud of her ,can't wait for her to get into college."

Damn it ,Mom . Atleast let me speak. Well..  what will I speak about my life ,I can barely eyecontact with people . I will just go to my room and shut the door till he leaves .

After a while :

" Mrs. Perskin . I know your daughter needs help . And I must say you're really intelligent about the whole piano teacher thing ,while I don't even know what the chord C means ,lol . But yeah , she seems pretty much doomed . Don't worry ,she is in good hands ."

" THANKS , Dr Fletcher . I can't even
thank you enough for this . "

" It's totally okay ,Mrs Perskin . I will come next week and start our sessions . Now if you pardon me ,I gotta go "

" okay "