Better Together (OffGun Fanfic)

Chapter Five

**back to present time**

GUN'S POV

Our flight got delayed for 30 minutes, I feel uneasy to be honest, what life awaits me back home? Am I ready to accidentally meet the people I'm running away from? There are slightest chance I'd come across them but the world can be playful sometimes, the more we avoid certain people the more they appear in front of us often. 

I can say I've healed, but not fully. Conscience haunts me leaving Oab without a closure, but who am I kidding? I've hurt him big time, he doesn't even wanna see me as I can remember...

My thoughts drifted to Off Jumpol, he didn't also deserve the way I treated him coldly when I left, I finished the project with him but he was asking for friendship in the end, I also ran away from him.

I was terrible when I left Thailand, I don't know how I'll face them all, but my greatest demon haunts me, my family, have I achieved enough for them? Am I finally enough for them? Will they still accept me? 

"Hey P'Gun, you're thinking too much again" Chimon said as he took his earphones off

"Chi, why are you leaving Dae? Don't you love her?" I asked

Chimon broke up with his girlfriend just because we're leaving New York, Chimon wanted to become an actor, he and Pim has contracts with the big TV network in Thailand and sooner or later they are starting to film their projects. 

"I love Dae, P'Gun, I promised her everything, but in order to do that, I have to be the best version of myself first. I broke up with her because I don't want her to hold on to me, long distance is very hard specially the time difference of New York and Bangkok" He said

I know Chimon is only saying this to me so that I will not worry, but his eyes screams pain and sadness as well. Love... it doesn't really choose the right time or the right age, when you fall, you fall really hard. 

We finally got called for boarding. Me and Chimon said our final goodbyes to our friends here in New York via texts...

"Chi, you ready?" I asked as if he was my son or younger brother

"Nope, but I'm ready to go out of my comfort zone" He said and gave me a small smile

I wanna be like Chimon again, excited for what's waiting for him in his future. I wanna be that Gun who is not running away from anything. I wanna be that Gun who's not that messed up to be loved... I wanna be happy again...

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It's been three days since we arrived from New York... I'm still kind of jet lagged, I decided to go out even if it's 11pm already, I stopped by the convenience store to get myself my favorite comfort food, ice cream. 

I drove myself to a building that I used to hide at when I still live here in Bangkok, it's actually a rooftop restaurant owned by my friend and I hope I'm still allowed here.