Better Together (OffGun Fanfic)

Chapter Fifteen

TIMELINE: COLLEGE DAYS

GUN'S POV

It's been a month since I clarified the feelings that I was denying. I burried those feelings and decided to keep on moving on with my life. I have fixed everything ahead of me. I managed to get a job in New York and I am moving there when I graduate, I am also done with my requirements. 

All I have to do now is to say my goodbyes to everybody. I needed to fix some stuff. I need to atleast say goodbye to things that are hurting me, even if running away from it doesn't really solve anything, I am choosing to be selfish. I am choosing me. I am choosing to run away. 

First on my list is my friends including Off... then my family and then Oab...

I wanted to say a proper goodbye to my friends and not just be drunk with them for the last time and leave them, I planned a farewell sleepover at Tay's condo, he got his condo as a college gift to him from his parents since their house is kinda far from university. It's only the three of us. The rest of the friends I have, I'm gonna have to see them on the party that we've set. 

I wanted to say goodbye to Off as well. I wanted to say sorry for being that cold person to him, for being shitty when I was also at my worst. And of course, I wanted to say thank you, he kept up with it and we've gotten kinda close I'm not gonna deny that... As per my feelings for him, I'm gonna have to let that one go too. It's not something worth telling him because he's so famous and what am I? A complete mess. He has so many co-actors paired with, I'm pretty sure I have nothing compared to them. In short, it's impossible for him to like me back. 

I wanted to say goodbye to my family, or at least mom and Pim. They support me with this and they are hoping Dad would come around before I leave but as I see it it's very impossible he does. He's still not impressed with my choices, he still has that hope I'd be an heir to their company...

Lastly, Oab... I need to say goodbye to Oab. I loved him even if I deny it, I did loved him. Three years with him is no joke, he was my escape from all of it before, he was there at my happiest, but I guess I need someone who will be there at my worst as well. I needed to tell him how I'm grateful am I and how sorry I was for everything I've done to hurt him. 

I scheduled everything... for all those goodbyes... I just don't know if my eyes are ready for all the tears I'm surely gonna cry. 

"Gun what really is this for?" Arm asked me. He knows I'm leaving and he knows my farewell was gonna be the party.

"I just wanna have one last moment with you guys, before I leave..." I said and we fell silent

"Do you really have to go?" Tay asked me

"Yeah. It's selfish, I know... but I needed to choose myself for once, try to fix the broken pieces" I said

"Gun, we're always gonna be here" Tay said

"I know, I just really need some time for myself, I need to fix myself before I am ready to live the life we've all planned. I have to be the best person for myself before I could be the best  best friend or business partner to you all"  I told them trying to stop the tears