Taking it to the next level

Chapter 3

*beths POV*

I am sitting on the bed in the bedroom I am staying in. it is a double bed , me and Chase are sharing.

I am sitting here thinking about how I almost kissed hayes.

I now think back to the time I didn't know him and I was a major fan girl over him.(I still am a bit.)I remember when I cried over him thinking I would never meet him. I would cry nearly every night thinking about how much I loved Hayes and how he'd never love me back.

I now think how lucky I am to have him in my life. were basically family now.

Omg I really wish he hadn't stopped me from kissing him. I really want to kiss him I want to feel his soft plum lips on mines I want to feel his warm body getting closer to mines as he gets deep into the kiss, I want to love him with all my heart, I want to love him more than I can love anyone. I want to spend days speaking about anything and everything. I want to go on the most beautiful most spontaneous trips, just me him and his car. I want him to know everything about me. I want to know everything about him. I want to feel every emotion with him. I want to fall out and make up with him. I want to see him get jealous when I speak to guys. I want him to just be mines.

I know it's wrong because I go out with his best friend and my best friend goes out with him.

He doesn't even like me in that way he thinks if me as a sister.

I don't want to be his sister I want to be Nash's sister, skylynn's sister and wills sister. I want to be Hayes' girl friend, his everything.

I can't.

I feel something for Chase but it's definitely not love.

I remember about two years ago I was best friends with Madi and she liked hayes, so did I but I never told her. I didn't want to complicate things, they knew each other for a longer time. I just put all the feelings I had for hayes to the back of my mind and I tried to find love in Chase. But I didn't find what I was looking for.

it hurts me when I see Hayes and Madi having problems. I would never let him hurt, I would never let him love in pain.

I try to help them with their relationship because I hate seeing hayes unhappy. I would give him anything and everything.

I'm such a bad girlfriend to Chase and such a bad friend to Madi for having these feelings.

I have always tried to hide away my feelings but they're coming out.

My thoughts get interrupted by Chase walking into the room.

I give him a small smile then look down to the ground.

He walks over to me and sits down on the bed beside me. he puts his arm around me.

"What you thinking about babe?" he asks, his words gentle.

I start thinking what a horrible person I am. I want Hayes when I've got such an amazing boyfriend who cares about me so much.

I feel a tear fall down my face and then another follows. I wasn't meaning it, now I look like a idiot.

Chase pulls me in tight. And starts rubbing my back, he knows that calms me.

I start sobbing into his chest.

I pull away and look at him. I give him a fake smile.

He looks at me worriedly, "babe what where you thinking about!?" he says loudly holding me in a firm grip looking right in my eyes.

My eyes were directing to him but weren't focused on him.

I was so confused I don't know what to tell him. I don't even know exactly what I was thinking myself. I was just feeling every emotion I was trying to hide away for years.

Why do I get so emotional?

I look a Chase. he looks worried.

"Don't be worried, I was just thinking about thinks I've been hiding away for ages" I said faking a smile again.

I quickly crawl over to my place in the bed hoping he would let it go.

I get under the quilt. and he comes over too.

He turns the lights off and wraps his arms around me and holds me tight.

He kisses me cheek and whispers in my ear, "if you ever need to speak, don't ever hesitate to come to me."

Him saying this makes me cry again.

I was trying to cry softly and quietly so he wouldn't notice but I think he does because he pulls me closer.

*7am*

I woke up with hayes on top of me.

Why hayes again?

He's just doing this to torture me.

"What hayes? why are you here? Where are the others? what time is it?" I say rubbing my eyes.

He unwraps his legs from my side and rolls over onto the space Chase was sleeping in.

"Chase and Madi went to get some breakfast"
"and it's seven" he added
"I just woke up about ten minuets ago and I decided to come in here and wake you up, just to annoy you!"

I roll over my eyes at him, turn away and pull the quilts back over me.

"Oh, no, no, no!"
"Your not going to leave me to wonder the house alone, what if someone breaks in and murders me." he whines while pulling the sheets off me.

"Well that will be your fault! you should always be aware of your surroundings." I yawned stretching.

I am only getting up because I know he won't leave me alone if i don't get up now.

It's so early. I don't even get up at this time for school.

Hayes is standing at the bottom of the bed on his phone.

This is the perfect chance.

I stand on the bed and walk over to him.

I get close to him.