Love & Divorce

Chapter 17

Quote :

" Don't let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game."

Roy - Lee POV :

I waited like a damn fool for Blanche to show up the next morning with the legal aid she promised she was going to get. She never showed!. I remembered I only asked her to get lagal aid I never got the change to tell her that it was a matter of urgency because I will be transported to another jail the next morning to await the court date.

I was beyond tense this morning and the future was a dark uncertain tunnel with no sign of light whatsoever.  I was loaded into a police van amongst other so called prisons being transported. This was the most uncomfortable ride the smell of sweat and stinky feet was all around us in the small convided space. I haven't taken a bath in two days maybe three. I used the clothes I was wearing to clean my eyes when I woke up in the morning. There was only one toilet in the cell but I was to afraid to use it . The thought of being raped kept playing in my head even if this was not a real jail.

We were around seventeen man in the back of one police van . The two windows that was amongst each side of the van was not open because of obvious reasons. I was seated right in the middle of the crowd and was not able to see or even spot familiar places to determine where it is we were driving. Blanche was going to show up later the day and I will be gone.

This journey was becoming unbareable and I was starting to wonder if the reason I was in here in the first place was even worth it. Up to this point I was only allowed to make use of a phone once I should have just called my damn parents in the first place. Up to this point they did not know where I was or what I was doing they probably assummed I was sleeping over at my girlfriends house.

By the time the police van came to a stop and we were allowed to finally leave the van after a three hour long drive my legs felt numb and my surroundings was not familiar  at all I tried to spot a sign or something that will give me an indication of where I was but all I was able to see was the big building and nothing else was i  sight ,no roads,no signs ,no other people , just us jail birds. Welcome home motherfuckers !!!

Blanche POV :

I spent alot of time over the weekend thinking about this baby and what Roy -Lee had asked me to do regarding the legal aid i was suppose to get. I went to the bank on Saturday morning and requested that half of my savings be released and the branch manager explained to me the money will be available in seven working days. Until then I have alot of time to myself and to really consider if I was willimg to spent my money on a cheater.

Monday morning came.... I decided to have the abortion after all it was a way out and this way I wouldn't have to explain to everyone how and why I  got into this mess in the first place. My parents...damn I couldn't even think about what they would say or think. My father warned me after all.

I arrived at the hospital, our local hospital and in this hospital there was no confidentiality , you come for an abortion or any sexual related sickness in a few hours the whole town will know, but I didn't care all I wanted was for this baby to be gone and not be pregnant.

The receptionist created my folder and I handed her the letter. I was asked to take a seat. While I was waiting I saw a girl around thirteen years old seated with her grandmother . The girl was crying and it was almost as if she was being forced into having an abortion. I said nothing and kept my eyes and ears to myself.

My name was finally called and I was taken into a room where a nurse assisted me. She kindly requested that I remove my  shirt so that she will be able to do a altrasound or whatever it was called. She placed ice cold gel at the bottom of my stomach and spread this  cool gel all over the lower part of my stomach . She applied some pressure and it felt almost  painful.  Minutes after I saw a small round circle right in the middle of the screen , there was no form yet just a round circle that made the sound of a heartbeart.

The first time I heard the small heartbeat . I wanted to hear this sound every second of everyday but my mind was made up after all. The nurse asked if I would like to take a picture home with me but I refused.

I really thought today will be the day I get my abortion . I even prepared for the pain  but the nurse instructed me to give the report to the receptionist who will then indicate the time , date and hospital to get the abortion.

Damn maybe I should reconsider.