A Stupid Hot Head-Natsu Dragneel fanfiction

3 Months

        Today, it has been three moths since I have came back home. Three months I've been clean of cutting. Three months of counseling that has helped me a lot. Three months I haven't seen the one who broke my heart. And three months since I have seen the pink haired boy. These months have been crazy. Some days, I was happy I was here. Other days, I was angered and yelled that I was fine and that I wanted to leave. Some days, I broke down into a deep state of depression. Though, through all of this I got better. I made friends with some people in my group, but never really got close to anyone. I didn't really chat with anyone from Magnolia, only Levy. 

        I sat on my bed on a Saturday, listening to music and scrolling through my laptop. My mind had drifted to thoughts of Natsu, and I tried to shake them out of my head. According to Levy, he stopped going to school and he didn't talk to anyone anymore. He had tried to get Levy to give him contact information the first month I was here, but now she hasn't talked to him for two months. One part of me is glad he has given up. The other part of me is sad and wants to hear his voice and see him. Over these few months, I don't feel as bad about Natsu anymore. I mean, I still have some feeling for him, but I don't care for him as much as I used to.

        I was very confused because usually Levy Skype's me by this time, but I haven't heard anything from her all day. As I checked my phone for texts that never came, I heard a knock at my door. I assumed it was my dad and lazily made my way to the door. When I opened it, I saw a familiar bluenette with a big smile on her face. I screamed and hugged her tiny body tightly. She hugged me back just as tight.

        "Levy! What are you doing here?!" I exclaimed.

        "Well, your father thought it would be good for you. I mean, you have been here without any friends for three months! So, he invited me down for a couple days," Levy explained excitedly.

        "I'm so glad you are here! I have been dying of boredom," I admitted.

        "Well, we are skyping Erza and Juvia tonight," Levy said.

        "W-what?" I asked startled. I haven't talked to them since the accident. 

        "They've been worried Lucy, they care for you. Just do it," Levy told me with sympethy  in her voice.

        "Okay," I sighed quietly and fell back onto my bed.

        "Yay!" she squealed.

        "Natsu doesn't know about you coming right?" I asked even though I was already expecting a no. I mean, he hasn't even talked to her in a long time.

        "He talked to me last night," Levy blurted out.

        "What?!" I didn't expect that at all.

        "He looked horrible, his eyes had bags under them and his hair was flat and he looked beat. He wanted to know how you were doing," Levy said sadly.

        "What did you say?" I asked.

        "I told him you were good and were as cheerful as always," Levy responded.

        "And he said?"

        "He got a big sad smile on his face that made my heart choke up,"Levy stated," So, I told him I was going to see you. He perked up at that, asking where and when. I told him I couldn't tell him because he isn't allowed to know. He nodded knowingly and started to walk away but then he said,'Tell her I still love her. That I'll always wait for her.' and then left."

        I stared at Levy with my mouth wide open. My heart was twisted in my chest and my breath hitched. Why did he still have this effect over me? Stupid Natsu Dragneel. I wish I could go back and change it. I wish I had never made that bet..... we never did go along with that, but technically I win. But, that doesn't matter.