Just another Bad Boy (Nash Grier)

Really?

Wrong
I was so wrong
I walked Into the school to be slapped in the face by reality.
He didn't like me and now I have no one.
He was making out with some chick and saw me and smirked straight to my face.
I smirked back and kept Walking
I'm not gonna let it bother me.

But of course in the back of my head it's screaming it cares.

I headed to my locker to be stopped by some girl.
"Your Alaska the new girl right?" She asked worried
"That'd be me yes." I laughed
"Oh my god! Thank the lord I looked for you everywhere yesterday. I was supposed to be your guide but I could not for the life of me find you." She sighed I laughed and we continued to talk.
I found out her names Sam and she's in 2 of my classes how I didn't see her
I don't know.
But we have lunch together so she said "I could sit with her" (hehe reminds me of mean girls)
I gladly agreed because who else am I gonna sit with?
I walked to class and ignored Matts pleads to talk to me and apologize and didn't get not a god damn word from Mr.Bad Boy.
I sighed with relief as the bell rung releasing us.
*Skip to Lunch*
I had lunch period with Sam so she walked me to the lunchroom and of course Matt and Nash were sitting together staring dead at me.
When did they become friends again?
I brushed it off and sat down with Sam at her table we made small talk until her group showed up.
"Hey who's the new girl?" A blonde haired boy asked
"Oh yeah this is Alaska. Alaska this is Johnson, Taylor, Olivia, Aaron, Stevie, and Gilinsky." They all waved and said hi as did I. We hadn't even been sitting there for 5 minutes when Johnson says
"Here it comes." as they looked behind me. I felt someone sit beside me. I looked over to find Nash.
"You know it's a good thing you're not eating because you should really lose weight your beginning to exceed the limit of being called Fat.
You should just go home and cut yourself maybe take some pills or jump off the roof. You'll do us all a favor."
Nash laughed and got up and left.
Matt and their group laughed at me as I got up and left.
I ran out of the school running home.
Why do I always do this?
I always end up hurting myself?
I try to be so nice and in the end I still end up doing it.
And "it" is doing exactly what they told me to do.
Killing myself.
But this time I will succeed.
I won't back down or be caught it's not like my parents are ever home anyways.
So they sure as hell won't walk in on me.
I quickly went on Twitter just to make it official to my 23k followers
"@alaskasbreeze To anyone that might've gave any shits about me. You might as well consider me dead because that's what ill be in about 10 minutes since that's what all the people around me seem to want. Even the ones I thought I could trust. And trust me I will succeed. Sorry if you cared but like everyone else you'll just leave too."
I posted it and my notifies instantly blew up. With things like What?
Or Please don't
But also my favorite Bye you whore.
I cried at that one.
But one caught my eye.
"Im on my way please don't do this to me" and that person was @nashgrier
He won't stop me he's the one that wanted this.
The schools only a couple blocks away so he'll be here soon.
I walked inside my house and checked to make sure no one was home and I was right no one cares. I sighed and walked up to my room Walking into my bathroom and closing the door.Making sure I locked it.
I pulled out the little box I used to use in 9th grade.
I'm now in the 11th grade and just now pulling it back out. 2 1/2 years clean.
What a shame.
I stared at the Box and traced the small snap lock on the front. Is this really what I want? Yes it is and everyone else wants it to.

I opened it and pulled out the small pill bottle my blade and most importantly a small bottle of tequila my favorite drink might as well use it for my last few moments.

I sat down in the bath tub with all my clothes and turned the water on filling it.
The water came to head as I chugged down the tequila with 15 pills exactly.
I grabbed the blade while I could still see and placed it on my arm.
1 for being dumb
2 for being fat
3 for moving
4 for never having that kick ass party
I laughed at that one soon overwhelmed with the loud banging outside the door.
But I kept going
5 for meeting Nash
6 for meeting Matt
7 for falling for both... I can't even see at this point
8 for never telling them how much they mean to me
9 for being a slut
10 for everyone hating me and
11 for being me
The door burst open as my body went limp.
I could hear the muffled noises of people moving Around and I guess calling 911.
But I didn't care they could be happy now. Right?