random danganronpa oneshots

despaiiiiiiiirrrrrr

this prompt is not original, the idea was taken from sing-singy and lonely-lgbt-writer on tumblr! i only expanded on it slightly

suicide tw, drugs tw, knives tw, needles tw, death tw, overdose tw, poison tw, killing/murder tw, crazy rage tw

and yes, if you couldn't tell already, this is not in the non-despair au
(at first this was just prompts but halfway through i started actually properly writing so uh enjoy i guess)

ok back to your scheduled shitshow

main idea:
makoto kills someone but it's a v3 trial 4 situation and he doesn't remember doing it

scenario one: makoto killed a random person
teary goodbyes for naehinahara
as they watch their sunshine go smiling and crying to his death
"take care of everyone for me, alright?"
and then they do, they carry his dying wish to the end and end the killing game, and are hailed as heroes, but they always carry that little bit of guilt that no matter what they did, it wasn't enough, it wasn't enough to save their sunshine and that they should have been faster and of course, the usual it should have been me who died.

and there are always nights, bad nights when one of them sees or hears or feels something that reminds him of makoto and one or both of them dissolve into tears, screaming and crying and cursing the heavens for taking their sunshine away

but at least they still have each other in this scenario, they still have a chance and a reason to live for...

scenario two: makoto kills one of his boyfriends and the remaining one survives

the other one having to expose him, and feeling the pain of having to send yet another one of his loves to their death

and they carry their boyfriends' legacy, they end the killing game, and they're hailed as a hero

and yeah, sometimes it's hard, there are days when all they want to do is cry, and scream and curse the world for taking away their soulmates

but they have their friends' support, and even though they never fully forget the killing games, the wounds begin to heal and scar over

and slowly

they move on

never forgetting their boyfriends, the people who gave them so much joy, but rather, accepting that they're not coming back and moving on in life

living a fulfilling life, so that they can proudly greet their boyfriends at the end.

scenario three: mega angst and everyone dies
so basically the same as the scenario above except-

they can't move on.

everyday is torture for them, seeing everyone living their own lives, unhindered by the death of what seemed to them to be their entire world

eventually, it all becomes too much; they're expected to "get over it" and everyday they hear things like "why are you still so upset about it? it's been almost a year, get out of your slump!" and "they were just boys! so what?" and even from their closest friends, the people they thought they could trust, "i understand what you're going through and i know they were very important to you but don't you think that you should be over it by now?"

"get over it!"
get over it
get over it

and as they walk to the stepladder in the middle of the room, with rope in hand, they whisper,
"I'm sorry, sunshines...I couldn't grant your last wish. I tried so hard but I just can't, I can't "get over it", I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU GUYS!"
"...I'm sorry... I hope that we'll be together soon..."