WORTH IT

Chapter 2

Theo

Here I go again. I am not sure why, but Jacob demanded from me to attend this club party. The party floor was lit up with glistening yellow and red lights. I used to enjoy these ridiculous parties. But for over two months, my perspective has altered completely—not just on parties, but also on life. I've realized that all of this fun, parties, and dating various girls every other week is pointless. I should be more focused and determined for my line of work, and perhaps start something worth living. Maybe now is the moment to find someone who will be—it for me. Someone who will stand out among the crowd of women.

"Hey! Theo, what are you doing?" Lucy interrupted my thoughts.

Lucy is our college's head cheerleader. She is the daughter of my godfather who is also my best friend, therefore we have practically grown up together. She is attractive and is blessed with stunning features. She has cat blue eyes, long legs, soft pink lips, and a gorgeous cupid bow which is vividly visible, however, it is speculated that she got it through a lip surgery. However, none of her characteristics work in tandem with her foibles to create her an ideal good partner. She's pretentious and a bit of an I-know-it-all, so different from the traits of her father. Not to mention that she is a complete bitch to anyone who dares to steal her little glory-in short, she enjoys receiving attention and claiming her territory.

"Hey, Luce. How are you?" I eventually offered her a flat smile.

"Never been better, now that you are here. What happened to you? You rarely go to parties anymore. Where have you been for such a long time? I haven't seen you anyplace other than baseball practice." She pouted as if she genuinely cared.

I know her better. I know what she wants, but I can't provide that to her anymore. It's been a long while since we dated. I realized that if we will proceed any further, it would only be detrimental to our family relationships.

She was one of the girls I dated during my undergraduate years. It's not like I used them or anything. The feelings were mutual. It was a give-and-take situation. They were all the same. All were mean, bitchy, spiteful, and obnoxious souls. No one really cared about me. They just wanted to be shown off by my side.

I was not any better though. I thought I belonged to that world, their world. The people who act like jerks to normal folks, to not so much so cash-rich people. But I don't want to date girls like her anymore. I want something real in my life, someone real in my life. These absurd booty calls are worthless.

"Yeah, I know but I'm here now." She gave me a familiar look, and I could tell from her eyes what she was going to say next.

"We both know you're looking for a good time. You've been so busy recently that you have forgotten how to have real fun. Perhaps I can help you with that?"

"Oh...I don't think so, Luce. We have discussed it several times. You know how I feel. Sorry." I feel awful, but I know she wants me just because I'm popular. I do care about her as a childhood friend and for her father's sake I tolerated her tantrums, but she is not a good person by heart. Then again I am not the one to judge her. Am I? I was just trying to fit in that world myself after her death. I should not think about that. Not right now.

"I will see you around, Luce. Bye!" Lucy yelled out my name, but I ignored her. I reached out to Jacob. He took too long to bring our drinks. I know I said something unpleasant to Lucy. But she should realize by now that I am not that person anymore, not after I found that letter.

"Hey, man! Is Lucy still bothering you?" Jacob inquired.

"Yeah—let's not discuss that." I scoff.

"Dude, you really are different now. Where's my best friend? I mean, my pal would never turn girls down for the hundredth time in the last two months. You haven't even been to any parties lately. What is wrong with you?"