Jahseh and I went to the mall AGAIN. We were in Finish Line. There was a worker there. I asked him if they had a pair of shoes in my side. When he was done telling me, he looked me up and down and licked his lips.
"Ok. Thank you" I thanked him. He bit his lips at me and nodded his head before walking away. I put the shoe back and was debating whether or not I was gonna buy them. I was pulled into an isle where no one was. I looked up to see an angry Jahseh.
"Don't ever look at another nigga other than me" he said sternly
"Jahseh it's not that serious" I said walking away. He pulled me back by my waist and pinned me against the wall by my throat.
"The fuck were y'all talking about anyway?" He questioned
"I asked him if they had that pair of shoes in my size" I answered
"Why'd you even started talkin to him in the first place?" He snapped
"I just told you" I said
"Why are you so pissed?" I questioned before he could say anything else
"Cuz if the way he was fuckin lookin at you" he snapped
"Was I lookin at him the way he was lookin at me?" I asked
"No but-" I cut him off
"Okay so why the fuck are you mad at me?" I spat
"Watch yo fuckin mouth" he snapped back. I just rolled my eyes.
"Gimme yo fuckin phone" he demanded. I gave him my phone. I don't have a password so he could easily get in. I could tell he was going through my contacts. He gave me my phone back once he didn't find anything. He started walking away. I grabbed his arm. He snatched it away. I grabbed it again and held a tighter grip so he couldn't snatch it away. I pulled him back to where we were.
"Jahseh chill" I said calmly
"How do you fuckin expect me to-" I cut him off
"Why are you getting mad at me for stuff that I have no control over" I spat
"You could've just simply not talked to him" he spat back
"Jahseh you act like I was flirting with him" I rolled my eyes
"Well.....were you?" He questioned. I was about to start crying because he was accusing me of something I didn't do and he really thinks I would do him wrong like that.
"No Jahseh" I said sounding like I was about to cry. His face softened. He pulled me to him.
"Don't cry" he rubbed my back. That's what I started doing. Crying.
"Ssssshhhhhh.......it's okay baby" he said in my ear. I stopped crying. He lifted my face up by my chin. He softly kissed my lips.
"I'm sorry baby" he wiped my tears
"I didn't mean to make you cry" he adds
"Jahseh....you thinking I would do that....it just- nevermind" I started walking away. He pulled me back and turned me around by my waist.
"It makes you what?" He questioned
"It makes me feel like you doubt my loyalty" I admit
"I'm so fuckin sorry mamas" he said kissing my forehead
"I.....I guess I just have trust issues when it comes to relationships because I just get cheated on and cheated on" he explains. I just hugged him and he hugged back. We were walking and were in line for Jamba Juice. There were boys nearby making comments about my body.
"She got a nice ass body" one of them said
"Look at her ass" another one said
"Look at them titties" another one said. I was becoming uncomfortable. Jahseh wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me in front of him. He wrapped his arms around my waist and turned my head by my chin so I was looking at him.
"You okay?" He questioned. I nodded my head.
"You sure?" He asked
"Why?" I questioned
"I'm just getting these vibes from you" he answered. I looked past Jahseh and at the boys who were looking at me weirdly. Jahseh furrowed his eyebrows and followed my gaze.
"It's okay mamas" he hugged my waist, putting his chin in the crook of my neck. They started getting closer to us. I became more uncomfortable.
"Baby you're fine" Jahseh comforts
"As long as you're with me....nothing is gonna happen to you" he said. I nod my head. They got EVEN closer. I became EXTREMELY uncomfortable.
"Ight come on" Jahseh said grabbing my arm. We walked away .
