𝘩𝘢𝘪𝘬𝘺𝘶𝘶 𝘹 𝘮𝘢𝘭𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘵𝘴 ♡

𝕞𝕪 𝕚𝕕𝕠𝕝 𝕡𝟙~ 𝕜𝕖𝕟𝕞𝕒 🌙

hi everyone! today i'm here with some angst because yk what I need some angst in my life rn. this one will include cheating so if you are sensitive to the topic of being cheated on please please skip this chapter! there will also be slight sex in this chapter but nothing graphic! and there will be slight spoilers regarding kenma and his occupation when he grows up in the manga. but if you don't mind either of those things I hope you enjoy~ ♡

kenma x male k-pop solo artist! reader

song inspiration: solo by jennie

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"I would like to thank my manager, and my company for working so hard on this comeback! And I would like to thank my fans, of course! I love each and every one of you! Thank you so much!" I concluded my speech as the opening to my recent comeback, Solo, began to play in the background. Normally people would perform during their encore performance at music shows, but today, all I could do was sit and stare into the crowd. My eyes were scanning for someone special, who I knew deep down wouldn't be here. But no matter what, my heart still managed to hold onto hope no matter what my brain said.

I had written my most recent song myself. Solo was about being set free and being on my own after being trapped in a relationship for so long. Written from personal experience, as well. No matter what my boyfriend, Kenma, did... I somehow still managed to salvage the pieces and glue them back together for a brief amount of time before it all came falling apart again. Kenma is a very popular streamer, he even has his own gaming company, which results in him being busy lots of the time. Of course, that's what my heart tells me every time he doesn't respond to a text or call for days, sometimes weeks on end.

My life as an idol was busy too! I don't mean to sound snobbish or entitled when I say this but... I'm a pretty high demand idol. Hundreds of companies want me to endorse them, I have new brand deals coming in almost everyday. My schedule is jam packed with training, photoshoots, studio sessions, exercise, and repeat. But no matter what, whether it was in between shoots or car rides to the studio. I still managed to text Kenma and ask him how he was doing, had he eaten today, and send him encouraging, loving messages which I never got in return.

In fact, the last time he had texted me first was when Solo first dropped. And instead of the praise and kind, encouraging words I had hoped to receive. All I got was a simple "Really... that's what you have to say to me?" My heart had been shattered into pieces. Despite all the praise my song is receiving online by bloggers, magazines, and my fans. Kenma's approval was the only one I truly needed to continue. When we had first started dating back in high school, Kenma was a second year and I was a first year. We were both fairly introverted and shy, which is why we clicked almost immediately when my classmate Lev, who I still talk to to this day, introduced us to each other.

We were so in love back then, I don't know what happened to us now. We used to stay up all night gaming, writing song lyrics, and playing the guitar until we could no longer keep our eyes open and we fell asleep on his futon, cuddling. Now we barely ever slept in the same bed. We went from cute couple dates at cafes, parks, amusement parks and movie theaters to arguing whenever we saw each other. Whether it be about money or how selfish the other is, it just never stopped.

I don't know if Kenma ever felt bad after an argument, because every time I looked into his eyes whenever we fought, I could tell he meant every word of it. He had fallen out of love, but I hadn't. This was my first ever relationship, the relationship middle school me had yearned for when all my friends left for their boyfriends and girlfriends. And now it was all falling apart in front of my very eyes, and I couldn't stand it. No matter what Kenma said, I would always falter in the end and say that he's right. To which he would just scoff and shove past me, telling me he's going to stay at Kuroo's for the night.