FOREVER & A DAY [ OFFGUN ]

CHAPTER THREE 💕

Nam had finally fallen asleep.

After one hour of cuddling and singing lullabies, Nam had finally decided to take a much needed nap. 

It was afternoon now. Gun was finally free as he left a sleeping Nam in the room and went to the living room. He gently placed himself in the middle of the couch and rested his head on the handle of the couch. 

Gun was tired. He had to assist his niece in all her needs as his parents were out for some charity event. But Gun wasn't complaining one bit. He had promised himself that he would always keep Nam before himself. 

Resting on the couch, he pulled out his phone to see if he had any work he had scheduled to do today. On opening the calendar, he found out that he had scheduled himself to call his editor, Singto and ... And check his sister's laptop. 

Gun's face dropped. He knew he had to check it. He knew he had been pushing all things related to Pim to the back of his head or simply just ignored it. But for how long could he keep doing this up?

Gun knew that he had to be strong. He had to accept that Pim was gone. She wasn't gonna come back. Never.

Gun got up from the couch and went to the guest room. That's where they had decided to keep Pim and Type's things. Gun looked around the room , trying to find the box marked with 'ELECTRONICS'. 

After searching for a couple of minutes, he found the box hidden between some other stuffs. Gun looked at the box, debating whether he really was ready or not. 

Gun shook his head. He had to do this. He had to accept the death of his little sister, Pim. The same sister he had shared his whole childhood with. The same sister on who's wedding he had ugly cried, not being able to accept that she had grown up so much. The same sister he had loved and adored all his life. 

He had to accept it.

Gun sat down on the floor and pulled the box closer to himself. He slowly opened the box, filled with his sister's memories. He found her laptop under a few other electronics.

 He carefully pulled it out and switched it ON.  The screen flickered and switched on. 'Of course, it had full charge,' Gun thought with a sad smile on his face. Pim had always been particular about these small things. 

With a sad smile on his face, Gun looked at the screen. The screen was asking for password. What had Gun even expected? Of course, it was password protected. 

'Guesswork then?' Gun resolved in his mind and tried to guess his sister's password. Her Birthday? INCORRECT. Her marriage anniversary? INCORRECT.

Gun wasn't even sure if it was a date or a name. Gun now only had one chance left. It was either hit or miss. Before Gun could enter a password, a small pop up message was displayed at the bottom left of the screen. In big letters, it read, 'If it's Type or Gun snooping with my laptop, please click below to be directed to a pre-set message.'

Gun was surprised. Pim knew that Type or Gun would sooner or later try to use her laptop. His lips quivered.' Oh, Pim...'

Gun clicked on the button and it directed him to a different screen. It asked him to enter Pim's favorite color. Gun entered 'ROYAL BLUE' , remembering how obsessed she was with that color. 

The screen now displayed a number of files, each with a small file name. At the bottom, he saw that there were two recently added files. One was named 'unedited Gun' and the other one was named 'unedited Type'.

Gun clicked on the file with his name.  It was a video. His hands hovered over the play button before he hit it.

  The video started. Pim was sitting in her bedroom in the video. She started speaking-

' Ah, I hope I don't look too fat. Ugh, having a baby is not easy.' Pim sighed loudly , pinching her cheeks. 

Gun laughed a bit, although it was not of humor. He hadn't notice the tears which were flowing down his cheeks. Pim looked just like she had looked the day of her surgery. The day she had given birth to Nam. The day she had left this world.

'So I'm gonna make this short since,  I know nothing's gonna happen to me. But since, there's this feeling in my gut that tells me that I am not gonna make it, I'm just gonna shoot this video.' Pim says in the video with a small smile, pain evident in her eyes. ' I'm gonna delete this after my surgery anyway.'

' Gun. If you're watching this video then, I didn't make it.  Did my child survive? ' Pim asks,  as if she's expecting someone to answer.

Gun nods, even though he knows that she can't see him.

'I'm sorry, Gun.'

"It's not your fault." Gun was now sobbing.  His heart ached with pain.  The same pain he had felt the first time he'd heard that Pim had passed away.

'How's Type?' Pim said, tilting her head to the side, trying to hide her tears. 'I'm sure that he's ugly crying.' Pim said with a soft chuckle, tears flowing down.

'Gun, please don't cry anymore. I may have left you but I'm always there with you.  Safe in your memories of me.' Pim rubbed her eyes and calmed herself. She looked so lost.

Gun couldn't stop his tears.  His eyes were red from crying. But the pain in his chest was growing as Pim spoke.

' Okay,  I'm done with crying. ' Pim says and shakes her head softly. 'Gun,  I need you to listen to me carefully Now. You can take maximum 2 months to mourn over my death. After that, you're just being dramatic.'

" I've already crossed that limit, Pim. It's been 8 months. " Gun replies to the screen.

' Now, I don't want you to cry for too long. You're my big bro. It'll be embarrassing if you cry over my death for more than 2 months.' Pim lightly chuckled.

With a serious tone,  Pim said, ' Gun,  I want you to know that I love you so much. And I want you to be happy.  You just became a full time YouTuber. I don't want to stand between you and your dreams. If I were alive,  I would've wanted you to pursue your dreams and become a big and famous YouTuber.' Pim looked down, not being able to hold her tears anymore.

' I want you to be happy, Gun. I love you.' Pim said while smiling softly. Her eyes glistened with tears. With nothing more to say, she silently switched off the camera before looking at the camera one last time.

The screen now started playing another video. This video was filled with Pim and Gun's photos and Pim's favorite song was playing in the background.

Gun's sobs got louder. With his and Pim's memories flooding in front of his eyes,  Gun was broken now. Even then she was thinking about Gun. She loved him so much. Gun wanted to tell Pim how much he loved her too. Gun wanted to tell Pim that he missed her.

Among all those sobbing and tears,  Gun made an important decision.

Gun was gonna pursue his dreams. He was gonna go back to his life and become the Youtuber Pim had wanted him to be.

Gun was gonna make Pim proud.

A/N :
So that was the third chapter!! What do you think?  Was I able to express Gun's emotions properly? Loosing someone close to you is really hard... I hope that this chapter was sad yet you could understand Gun. :")

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