Baby Come Back

Chapter 19

It's Sunday, and we're sitting on the couch in Laurens shed. I was reading and I look up to see her staring off into space.
"We've got school tomorrow" she says as she continues to not focus on anything but the wall. I knew she was nervous about it; Jake would be there too and her and I have been the talk of the school for the whole year. It's going to be horrific with all the looks we'll be thrown tomorrow. I get up from my seat in the arm chair and walk over to her and sit down so I'm in her lap straddling her. Her hands automatically go to my hips to hold me in place and I wrap mine around her neck.
"You're worried about it" I say more as I statement as apposed to a question.
"Jake expects me to keep away from you. He's got eyes everywhere..I mean he thinks I'm 100% straight now and I want to move on." She mumbled as I ran my hands through her hair.
"Okay" I replied
"Okay?" She says in disbelief.
"Okay... I mean, we'll just act like strangers in school again. I'd rather have you part time than not at all. But I have one condition.." I trail off as I kiss her neck.
"Hmm?"
"We leave for lunch. I can't keep my hands off you for that long." I say and I can almost hear her smirk.
"Okay baby, whatever you want"
The rest of the day was spent either making out or procrastinating, which happily kept our minds off the long day that inevitably faced us tomorrow. I missed just being with her, being able to look up and see her twirling her hair while she was caught up in a book or watching a movie intently. I'm never going to let her slip through my fingers like that again.
She woke up at 4a.m with a nightmare, but it wasn't as bad as the night before which sparkles a little ray of hope; maybe she can get better.
The next morning she was awake before me stroking my hair and humming contently; I would have given anything to stay there with her. Mornings with her were worth more to be than all the money in the world. The silence makes me feel like we're the only two people alive. I helped her get changed and she cooked breakfast. Jake was going to pick her up in his car, so I had to go back into Claire's house.
"Okay so ill meet you in the car park at 12?" I mummer against her lips at the door. She had her arms firmly around my waist with her hands in my bum pockets and I couldn't find it in me to leave yet.
"Mm hmm..keep your phone on and ill text you" she says but its muffled and she pecks me on the lips.
"And if you need help with anything you just ring me and ill be there in two secon-" I was cut off by her kissing me again. It was depended by us both instantly and she softly moaned as I tangled my hands in her hair. I heard a car start to pull up the long drive.
"No okay I need to go!" I say pulling back. She smiles and waves at me as I run to the house.
"I love you!" She screams and I yell it back before swinging the door open and slamming it shut. I rest my back on it and bite my lip to keep in a squeal of excitement because of the rush of happiness I got when I hear her say that. I do a little dance and I look up to see Shane and Claire in the kitchen, Oliver in his high stool, and all three pairs of eyes on me.
Oliver lets out a bubble of giggles and Shane starts to laugh, while Claire shakes her head with a smile on her face.
"Ha! you owe me $10 honey bunch!" He yells and my mouth hangs open.
"You two bet on us?!"
"Well yeah, Claire was convinced it'd take at least a week, but I knew you'd walk in here with a shit eating grin on your face after getting laid" he says while he holds his hand out as Claire shoves a ten dollar bill into his palm.
"I can't believe it" I say and they both laugh.
"So how'd it go? Are you two married yet?" She asks and I roll my eyes.
"No..." I start as I walk into the kitchen.
"Jake is twisting her arm behind her back. She was too scared of him to even look at me, but I think everything's okay now. But no one can know, well apart from you guys. We've only got one year of school left, it'll be hard but it's only a few more months right?"
I was wrong. I was so so wrong. I got to school that morning and I could hear the whispers about me already. I just made my way to my locker as I normally did, ripped up whatever stupid note was consistently left there with something taunting my sexuality or otherwise and opened it and put my books in. I looked up across the hall to see Lauren, looking as gorgeous as ever, standing with Jake and all his friends. We made eye contact for a brief moment before I looked away shyly.
To be honest, her seeing me at this point in my life, how I've completely lost all my social value, how I am basically the schools loser and how purely pathetic I am scurrying around under people's feet, trying to avoid people's gazed. I was different to the girl she met last year and I'm afraid she'll see me as less of the girl she fell in love with.
I can hear all Jakes friends making fun of me, I quickly look over to see Jakes friend Ben too close to Lauren. He's just like Jake; a complete meat head who's neck is thicker than the wheel of a car. He's whispering something in her ear and I feel a gulf of something over power my body that I've never had to feel with Lauren; jealously. Jake is watching them from the corner of him eye and my ears are filled with the obviously fake giggles from Lauren. I couldn't do this, she's mine and only mine. I'm the one who's see all of her, I loved her at her worst and I still think she's the best. The bell rings and I stomp off to class, anger pulsing through my veins and venom in my mouth.