𝙈𝙀𝙇𝙏𝙄𝙉𝙂 I alessio s.

𝟏𝟖 'It's Been Over a Year 2'

*two weeks later*

It took me about a week until I could recover from my coma. So they let me go home after a week of waking up. I'm home now and it's Friday. The last week has been so weird and everything seems off. Luckily my room stayed the same, but my house was slightly different. I don't know I just assumed they rearranged furniture for the past YEAR. My parents have been super patient with me and are being really nice, a little too nice.  It's not that I'm complaining, but I haven't talked to Alessio since the hospital. Apparently he's come by a couple times to try and talk to me, but my parents know he's the last person I wanna see right now. Though they won't let him in, they'll always play messenger, and tell me what he has to say.

"I'm sorry."

"Can we please just talk?"

"I miss you."

I feel like I've teleported into the future and know nothing about the world today. It's only been a year, but everything I remember is in the past. Just like him and I's relationship...

Sometimes I wonder about Hannah. When did they meet? What is she like? Have they done... it? I don't know if I should hate her or not, but it's just so upsetting to me. If Alessio was in my situation, I would've never loved again. But what was it like? What was it like for everyone else when I wasn't awake?

Anyways here I am laying in bed. It's almost 2:00 a.m. and I'm still awake. I haven't been able to sleep at all. It's like I'm too scared to fall asleep and then not wake up again.

I turned to my side to where I was facing my window. A memory came through my mind. The day that my grandmother died, Alessio came to comfort me. That was the day we became official.

*flashback*

"Whats that one thing your grandma used to always call you?"

"She called me a lot of things."

"Well yeah, but I remember this one-"

"Mariposa. Ever since I was born she called me her Mariposa."

"Oh yeah. Mariposa? What does it mean?"

"It means, butterfly."

"You know she had a nick name for me too."

"I bet it was something really stupid."

"I have no idea what it mean't, but I think it was like el unico or su amor."

"Oh god, I know what those mean."

"What? What do they mean?"

"I'm not telling you."

"C'mon! I'm not just gonna live the rest of my life not knowing what these things mean."

"El unico. It means the one. Su amor. It means her love."

"Why'd she call me that?"

"You really wanna know?"

"Well yeah."

"She always had this fantasy about us ending up together. I know it sounds so stupid."

"I don't think it's stupid."

"Why?"

"I don't know what if I am el unico?"

"What?"

"I like you Y/N. Since the day we met. Fifth grade, I've liked you. A lot."

*end of flashback*

I got up from my bed and walked over to my window. Opening it, I carefully climbed out of it to sit on my roof. I sat in the same spot I sat in when Alessio was once beside me, remembering what life was like when it was just him and I.

*rumbling*

I turned my head to the left of me to see two arms pulling themselves up onto my roof.

"AHHH!" I screamed.

"Shhh! It's Alessio!" the voice whisper yelled.

I watched as Alessio pulled himself up onto my roof, sitting beside me.

"Look I know you don't wanna see me right now, but..." he rambled, but I started to crawl back into my room.

"Y/N wait!" he yelled, grabbing my wrist.

I startled.

"What?" I said with attitude.

"Just hear me out... Please?" he said sympathetically.

"Ugh." I groaned, sitting back down.

We sat there in silence. Was he thinking of what to say?

"Y/N speak to me. We won't be able to grow from this if you don't just tell what's wrong." he then said.

"GROW FROM THIS? Alessio I woke up less than a month ago and you think I'm just gonna grow from all this? It's like I'm from some other planet! I don't know what's going on in this world anymore!" I ranted.

He just looked at me in sorrow.

"Why don't you understand that it's been a whole year? My mind is set to a year that I'm not even living in. For a whole entire year I lay motionless in that hospital bed... While- While life still went on for everybody else." I cried.

It took me a second to put my words together, but I continued.

"And you- You expect us to just grow from all this? I woke up into a world where you and I aren't together anymore. You have Hannah... So what? The whole year your girlfriend was in a coma you went out to replace-"

"YOU DON'T KNOW THAT!" Alessio yelled, making me shut up.

"The past year, I went to visit you every. single. day. You couldn't hear me but I sure as hell told you EVERYTHING. Y/N, I moved out, I got a job, I got a car, and- You were the first one I told. Not Hannah, not my mom, not my dad, but my best fucking friend. I was supposed to go on tour, don't you remember that? How we would always talk about going together? I didn't go. All because I wanted you to be there. So I waited. I waited for you. Waiting, not knowing if the girl I loved most was ever gonna wake up, but I still waited. Yeah we were dating and I'm sorry, but you have no idea how many times I was told to move on." he lectured, pointing downward as he listed everything.

"You- You know what? It is mind boggling that you don't realize that this isn't all about YOU!" I yelled.

"Alessio, when I woke up they told me what happened. That I "surfed a storm". I tried to remember, but I couldn't. Digging into the back of my fucking mind the only thing I remembered was- Was you. Deep down I was confused, but I was still so happy to see you when you walked through that door. All the thoughts of how much pain you must've went through when I was asleep we're all gone when you told me who Hannah was. I realized that you were fine. You didn't need me anymore. All because you had, Hannah." I said in a low voice.

"Y/N, I need you more than anything. But no one new when you were ever gonna wake up. I couldn't just sit around and do nothing with my life. So I did my best to move on, but have the time for you. It made Hannah so upset that I still came to you everyday, but that didn't stop me from going." he replied.

"So even if we did move on from this? How do you think it'd make me feel to see you with Hannah?" I asked.

"Y/N..." Alessio said, in loss for words.

"Exactly. You cant even tell me." I told him.

"Y/N, you know I can't just break up with her. So why can't we just continue being friends?" he said.

"BECAUSE I STILL LOVE YOU!"