A Cullen's life

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Sarah Cullen POV

I walk into the school the next day and everyone is whispering about me and what happened between me and maya along with drake.

I just keep walking while smirking.
I see my siblings and Bella looking at me but I don't care.

"Hey Sarah lets do it!" A guy yells out to me as I was about to walk in the bathroom.

"If your lucky" I tell him

I got them falling over themselves trying to get with me and I like it.
Having all the attention on me.
I fix my hair a little and walk out and go to class.

I sit down and wave at jake who now sits with mike and drake.
I sit next to Bella and Edward.

He waves back at me and I turn around and see Edward looking at me.
"What?" I ask and he just shakes his head.
"Whatever" I scoffed.

It was now time for lunch and I walked in like the bad bitch I am with maya and Maria also our new friends Erica and Rachel.
Turns out she is a vampire to and I feel very attracted to her.
A shame really,I never felt what I feel for no body else but I'm not focused on that.
I just want to have fun.

"I'm bored" I say as we sit at the table.
"Well can't be hard for you to find someone here" Rachel said to me.
"Yea but I don't want just anybody" I sigh
"Well I don't care as of right now" Erica said and I laugh "of course you don't" I tell her and we laugh.
"Wassup babes" jake said and I look at him confused "who you talking to?" I ask and he frown which was so cute.
"You guys" he said
"I know I was joking jake" I say and he ohh.

I shake my head and look around the lunch room for a target but I don't find one.
I don't want to sleep with any of these people.

The Bell rings and we leave for class.
All day I try and find someone I want but I don't.
I walk to my car and drive home.
I walk in and my dad looks at me.
But he's got that face and I also notice that we're in the house by ourselves.

"Hey dad" I say and he stands up
"Why?" He ask and I'm confused "why what?"
"Your letting yourself be known and your doing stuff that wouldn't normally do,you talk of Edward and Bella being the reason we leave but your doing a good job of that on your own" he said and I sit down feeling guilty.
"Im sorry dad" I say and he shakes his head "that's the thing Sarah,you say your sorry but do you really mean it?" He ask
"Yes dad I do" I answer
"Then start acting like it because the girl no the woman that I see now is not my daughter this is someone else"

I nod and look down
"Dad I'm not your daughter from back them and I'm sorry that I'm not enough for you or mom or anyone everything in my life goes wrong in some way and I'm just tied,I'm so tired dad that I just want to die and give up" I say crying and he looks at me shocked.
"Dad I can't keep doing this,I can't act like something I'm not it's to much for me to handle and I see the way you look at me,you don't look at me with love anymore you look at me as if I'm a problem you wish would go away" I cry out.

"I want you truest me Sarah I do so don't think for a second I don't" he told me

"You don't. Nobody does" I say and get up and walk out the house
I then speed into the woods and fall on the ground.
I just start crying.
And I can't stop.

I guess I'm so upset that the tears don't stop.
I get even sadder when I know there not tears there venom that acts like tears.

I hear footsteps and look up and see Jayden and Paul in wolf form.
"Hi jay,Paul I'm sorry I look a mess right now" I say and wipe my tears but they won't stop and I find myself crying again.

Jayden walks over to me and lays on the ground and I laugh against him.
"Thank you for being here" I say petting him.