Arianna

Chapter three: sophomore

The summer just ended. Everything between me and Christian was like roller coaster. He started football and I started cheerleading. We say each other everyday. But on the first day of school he was distant he didn't want to be by me. We were the power couple at our school. As the power couple the first day was important to us and he was no where to be seen. I was worried. Something didn't seem right. Luckily we had lunch together. I knew I would see him there. As I walked into lunch I seen him. I was going to walk up to him and demand what his problem was. "What the hell Christian. Where have you bee all day?" I was upset and he seemed careless. "Chill babe I was around." what the hell was that supposed to mean? He seemed off. As if he was hiding something for me. I sat with all the cheerleaders and he sat with all the football players. He looked happy so I didn't bug him. When lunch was over I went to my locker to grab my books. As I started walking I spot him. I spotted him holding hands with someone. And then he KISSED her. How could he? How could he be so, so, such an asshole. I was full of rage and I demand an explanation. "WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT YOU WERE HOLDING HANDS WITH THAT GIRL AND YOU KISSED HER RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME!?Wtf I thought we had something strong. I put up with your bullshit for a year. And this is how you play me. Well guess what? I'm nobody's bitch. You can't just mess with me and be okay with it." I gave him an ear full. And he still seemed careless. "Okay babe see you after practice or during which ever. oh by the way cut the fucking attitude. Okay bye". What the fuck me cut the attitude. I was pissed I didn't go to my last class, instead I went to the weight room to clear my head. When practice was over Christian came to the weight room to talk. "Look Arianna I know what you saw was wrong but it was meaningless." Yeah right I have heard that before. "And I just want you to know that I love you. So come on put the weights down and let's head to practice." Wow really I'm supposed to believe this. I didn't put the weights down in fact I started to run on the treadmill with Dumbbells. "I don't have practice today. I'll just stay in here until I have to go home." I lied. I did in fact have practice but I chose to go late. I wanted him to leave. "Stop lying yes you do. I seen the schedule. Now come on or you going to be late." I gave in. He was right. And I loved to cheer so I had to go. I nodded in agreement. "Your right. Okay let's go." I gave him a fake smile and he kissed my forehead head. After practice we went to his house. We showered and cuddled for a little while. Everything was fine until he got a text. It was from her. When he noticed that I saw the text, he kissed me. I pushed him away and he kissed me again. He pinned me down and kissed me more and more. He, unfortunately, knew my weak spots and he knew how to use them against me. That fucking asshole. Before I knew it we were naked and having sex. It wasn't the same in fact it felt meaningless. It didn't fell like he loved me. It felt like he was just horny and he need someone to fuck. I was hurt. I wanted to cry. When he was finished I made up some excuse to leave. "Hey I have to go. I-I have practice in the morning very early." I lied. In fact I didn't have practice at all. "Kay bye." He said. "I love you have a good night text you when I get home." I hoped for a reply and all I got was a simple meaningless bye. "Yup. Kay bye". He was expressionless. I wanted to pounce on him. But I left. For the next week I didn't talk to him. He didn't text me or call me. So on Saturday after practice I went to his house and broke up with him. "That's it Christian. I can't take anymore of this. Your constantly cheating and lying about everything. I'm done. We are done. I have put myself through all this pain with you and I can't do it anymore." I began to cry. "Really Arianna. You cheated on me. You constantly lied to me. I was always truthful to you and you did me bogus. This is your karma. You brought this upon your self." Everything he said was a lie I was nothing but faithful and loyal. How dare he turn everything around on me and blame me. "FUCK YOU CHRISTIAN!? Don't ever talk to me again." I cried harder and harder. I ran home. But I wanted to keep running. After a month or two I finally stopped being so depressed. But I couldn't seem to drop my feelings for him. One Friday night during thanksgiving break, Christian called me. My heart skipped a beat. "Hey Arianna, long time no talk. What's up?" I was in shock. "I-I'm fine. Just home. How about you?" There was a pause. "I'm fine. Can I come over?" I stood quiet. I didn't know what to say so I panicked. "Y-yeah sure come over." About 20 minutes later he was sitting cuddling me. It felt weird. Next thing I knew we was on top of me. We were kissing passionately. We turned me on. We got naked. He had sex passionately. It felt like our first time. After we finished having sex he left. With out a word. On Monday I planned to confront him at school. When when I go to my locker with hold hands and kissing the same girl I saw him with. He had a girlfriend. He played me again. After a few weeks he called again. And he came over but this time he spent the night. I was confused. When we woke up the next morning we cooked breakfast and he left. A few months past I didn't talk to him. He would look at me in lunch but that was it. "Hey Arianna!?" It was Ruby I haven't talk to her in a long time. "Hey girl how you been." She looked happy. "I'm great sorry about blowing you off I have been having problems. Listen I'm going to your house tonight we need to catch up." Before I could say anything. I bolted to the bathroom. I had to throw up. It was very weird. I thought I was coming down with the flu. "Arianna are you okay?" Ruby followed me. "Yeah I am now. I'm sorry that was so random." I was so confused. "Well maybe you should go home early and get rest I'll see you after school?" I was still confused. "Yeah umm just come over and we will talk. Bye Ruby." I walked away still confused. I went home early. "Arianna Gravano GET YOUR FUCKING ASS IN THIS GOD DAMN KITCHEN NOW." My mom seemed upset I couldn't tell why. "What's wrong?" I asked as I walked out the room. "I bought you a fresh pack of pads two months ago and you never opened them you haven't even finished the ones that were already opened. Anything you want to tell me?" I didn't understand what she was saying and then it hit me. It's been two months since my last period. What the fuck. "Mom I'm sorry. I have been having sex and I was always careful except for one time." I put my head down and began to cry. My mom looked upset with me but she always understood because she went through the same thing. My mother had me at the age of 16. "Honey, it okay I'm taking you to the doctor tomorrow. We will get through this together. Can I at least know who it was?" I didn't want to tell her about Mathew so I said it was Christian. "It was with Christian. About a few months ago it was my first time." I lied I felt bad but I didn't want her anymore mad. Ruby came over as she promised and I decided to tell her. "Ruby I have to tell you something. Well more like show you. Come with me to the bathroom please." I was nervous. "What is it A. Just tell me." She was anxious. "No it's better if I show you." I sat on the toilet. "is that what I think it is." Ruby I was confused. "Ruby just wait." I peed on the stick. I waited for the results and showed it to Ruby. "A. WHAT THE FUCK. YOU'RE PREGNANT!? How? With who? So when you threw up today it was because of.. Omg how long have you known?" Ruby was shocked. "I found out when I got home. My mom was the one to call me out on it. It's Christian's. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow. Please go with me!?" I was nervous. I threw up. "Of course A. Remember through thick and thin I will always be here for you." She said as she rubbed back and held my so I could throw up. The next day I went to the doctor with Ruby and my mom. My mom was still pretty up set but when we seen the picture of the baby we all cried and became excited. It was a Wednesday, my mom didn't have work and Ruby wanted to hang out. We all decided that we should tell Christian and show him the picture for proof. "Christian let's talk." Christian gave me and Ruby a weird look. "Okay what is this about?" He seemed nervous. "Christian. I-I'm. P-pregnant." I was nervous and scared. "WHAT THE FUCKING YOUR LYING." He was full of rage. "No she's not Christian look he's the ultrasound from Saturday." Ruby said. "That's fake that ain't real. The fuck." He was still mad. After two hours of trying to convince him. We finally go through. About a week later Christian asked me to have an abortion. "Arianna please we can work on a future together. Just please do this for me." But I wanted to keep the baby even if it meant doing it all alone. "No if you don't want this baby then leave." I rubbed my showing belly. I completely four months of being pregnant when Christian came at me with full rage. "I'm sorry Christian it's too late for an abortion." I said proudly. "Its not to late. Lets go I'm taking you to go get one." He grabbed my arm and started dragging me. "NO! I'm not going I want my baby rather you want him or not." The next thing I knew I got a big punch to my face. Christian hit me so I hit him back. He grabbed me pinned me to the floor and started to beat me up. He kicked me multiple times in my stomach. When he was done, I stood up. I felt a horrible pain in my stomach. The next thing I knew I was bleeding. Christian watched me bleed. I quickly called my mom for help. "He did you a favor." She said cold heartedly. I screamed and cried. I felt like no one had my back. I quickly called Ruby and explained what happened. She took me to the hospital. And I lost my baby. I hated Christian for what he did to me. I went to school a week later and heard a nasty rumor started by Christian that I killed my own baby. I was hurt and depressed and full of bruises. Luckily it was the last day sophomore year. I never talked to Christian since then.