Arianna

Chapter four: Junior year

I haven't seen or talked to Christian since that day. I made a promise to myself to never let my self feel for him anymore. No matter what! Since that day I got worse. I started drinking, smoking and I started doing heavier drugs. I didn't want to feel anything anymore. I cut everybody off. I got in trouble more often. I started sleeping with some random guy for drugs. He was a lot older and I didn't care. I was 16 and hurt full of pain. I was desperate. I messed up my sophomore year so I had to take summer school. The first day of summer school was hell. All I wanted to do was get high and go home. But I couldn't. About a week into summer school I met this guy. Who looked so familiar but I didn't pay any mind to it. I thought maybe it was the drugs. One Thursday during summer school he approached me. "Hey Arianna long time no talk. How have you been." I gave him a dirty look. "Who the fuck are you?" I was pissed. How did he know me? "Um we met during the summer remember? You were dating Christian." Oh yeah I remember he was the guy who kept staring at me every time I hung out with Christian's friends. "Oh right. Hey what's up? Sorry but I don't know your name." I personally didn't really care. "Oh right. Sorry. I'm Kevin." I still didn't care. "Got to go." I said as I grabbed my little baggy full of cocaine. "What is that?" What the fuck will this guy ever leave me alone. "What does it look like?" I mean it was only obvious. "Whoa I didn't know!?" Why the fuck does he care? "Look I gotta go to the bathroom." I lied I was going to go hide somewhere and sniff. "Arianna can we hang out. Please!? Maybe we could smoke a little?" Well he wanted to smoke so I mine as well. "Yeah cool. Hit me up later." I finally got away from him. Weeks later we hung out. "Arianna look. Your very beautiful. I don't know what your story is but what I do know is that it would completely suck, if something happened to you." Who the fuck does he think he is. "Hey man we are here to smoke and chill that's it. Don't try to give me that intervention bullshit. If it wasn't for your 'best friend' I wouldn't be so fucked up!" I was furious. "Please Arianna help me understand." He said as he grabbed my hand. "Why Kevin? Why do you want to know?" I was curious. Why did he seem to care so much? "Because Arianna. The moment I saw you. The moment I got to speak to you. I knew I had to get to know you." He got closer to me. "Now please tell me. What happened with Christian?" I told him. I cried. And he fidgeted. "What the fuck he did that. That's not right?!" He was angry and you can tell. "Hey please dont judge me." I begged. "I would never. I can understand why you are the way that you are. No offense."
"No you're fine. But thanks for not judging." I was still crying. And he held me. All night. We got rid of all the drugs I had. He helped me stay clean. I wanted to stay clean for him. I think I was falling in love. When I felt clean and ready I called Ruby and we talked and talked. I felt horrible but luckily she understood. "A. I understand I was there remember? I cried seeing you cry. You were a mess and I wanted to help you but you shut me out. And you started sleeping with some guy you just met and I was worried. Honey, I'm your best friend. Please don't shut me out anymore." I cried at her words. I told her about Kevin and how he's helping me. "That's amazing. Arianna I'm proud of you. I think he's good for you." She hugged me and it felt good to be hugged by someone I loved. I started junior year on a clean slate and with an amazing boyfriend. About 6 months in to our relationship that's when things got bad. The fight started. The breaks up and make ups started. But it wasn't until we reached 10 months together, that things got out of control. We started to have sex. I got pregnant and I grew very ill and miscarried. We argued even more. One day, on a Saturday, we argued really bad. So bad I slapped him. "FUCK YOU KEVIN YOU CHEATED ON ME AND YOU EXPECT ME TO BE OKAY WITH THAT!? You out of all people knew the real story. And you did me bogus. Fuck you!" I slapped him so hard my hand hurt after. "I told you sorry. God damn it Arianna what the fuck do I have to do to prove it?"
"Go fucking be with her. I'm done." I started to walk away, when he grabbed my hand. I turned around and punched him. He had a big bruise and I felt like I broke my hand. After I few months of arguing, we made up because in the end I knew I wanted to be with him more as ever. I finished junior year, when he purposed. It was a hot summer day. Kevin decided to spend a romantic day with me. We ate breakfast, went to the beach and had a romantic moon light dinner. As we ate dinner the hostess came to our table with a microphone. Kevin clears his throat. "Hey everyone can I have your attention please? I want to surprise this beautiful woman in front of me. Arianna Gravano. We have been dating for a year now on this very day. Every fight. Every time you hit me." Every one laughed. "Every kiss and every moment spent with you this past year has been amazing. But I would like the opportunity to spend the rest of my life with you and get a head start on our family" he said as he winked. "Well what I'm trying to say is." He got on one knee and I froze. "Will you marry me." He revealed the most perfect ring. I froze I didn't know what to say. "U-u-umm yes I will." He put the ring on my finger, stood up and kissed me. It was the most perfect moment. I wanted to melt.