Loving can hurt

Chapter 9

Some people are meant to be together and some are just not. When you try to be loved by someone and not get it, it's because you are meant to be end up with someone else, someone who is in need of your love, who needs the care and dedication you are willing to give in. Someone who is dark inside, someone who is broken, someone who has built up invisible walls around him so that people cannot see the real him but waiting for YOU to come and break down those walls, see the real him and brighten up his inside with the light you have in yourself.

This is just my point of view. I know I am meant for someone who will treat me how I should be treated. I have built these walls around me so that I will not invest my love in people who are not worth it. I am waiting for the one, the one who will be imperfectly perfect for someone like me. But somehow I know the time has not come yet, I still have to wait for the one, for whom I will break down these walls and let him in.

I am walking along the side of the road to the lake. I look up at the sky and large clouds are forming above my head. This was a bad idea to walk at this time without any umbrella. I quicken my pace. The beautiful cocktail-blue shade sky is beginning to darken into gravel-grey. Large pillows of cloud are moving, blotting out the old-gold color of the setting-sun. I get the first splatter of rain on my phone screen. I turn off the music and put the phone and head-phones in my bag. I took shelter under an old oak, hoping that I could see out the shower. Droplets of moisture began to drip from the leaves. They were sprinkling onto the grass. Then the rainfall became more intense. So much rain was falling that the sound blurred into one long, whirring noise.

The rain isn't feeling like stopping anytime soon. Regardless of the cold weather I start to walk in the rain towards dorm. Few seconds later I get all wet. I cover my front with my arms and start to walk fast. I am shivering and breathing heavily. I am no more able to walk fast so I decide to keep on walking, slow or fast. There are no people or cars on the road. I am alone, who else would be here in the freezing rain at this time of the evening?

I hear a car horn behind me. Afraid of who it could be, I start walking a bit fast. The black car keeps on moving slowly with me and its horn is getting louder. I stop in my tracks and the glass of the window start moving down. I hold my breath and look inside the car. It's Liam.

"Ella! Come inside" his voice mixed with noise of rainfall. I release a breath I didn't knew I was holding. I round the car. My hand grip the door handle, I open the door and slip inside the passenger seat. The car is warm.

"Are you alright?" he asks.

"Yea, just a bit cold." my voice shaky. I open my eyes and he turns the heat up to its maximum.

I throw my head back and close my eyes. My head feels full and heavy. For the first time, I am oddly comfortable around him.

"Should I take you back to your room?" He asks, unable to say anything I just nod in response. He didn't say a word after that but somehow this silence between us is peaceful and soothing.