Alive in Summer

Prologue

Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

Note: Expect some grammatical errors. I'm still learning, I'm now apologizing for my future errors. Thank you and please spread good vibes.

Please be advised that this story contains mature themes and strong language that aren't suitable for young audiences. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!

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Prologue

I admire those women who choose to live in the present. Women who can stand up on their own, make their own decisions and know how to fix all the mess they've made. The women who had plans in life and women who knows what future is ahead of them. One more thing that I really admire from them is, they have principle. Principle that cannot control by others. I admire them for they don't need to rely from other people, they only rely on themselves.

Minsan naiisip ko nalang, why can't I be one of them?

"Mom, you promised na kapag natapos ko na yung highschool ko, you'll send me back to Philippines," I shouted, full of frustration.

Mas lalo lang nangibabaw ang inis ko nang hindi man lang siya lumingon sa akin. This is pissing me off. Padabog kong sinarado ang screen ng laptop niya. Luckily hinarap niya ako, kahit masama ang tingin niya 'sakin ay hindi ako natakot.I did not look away, this time, I stared at her with the same intensity.

"Leave my office, Arielle. I don't have time for your petty request," she said as she open her laptop again. Not giving me the attention I wanted.

For the ninth time, I feel pity for myself again... Bakit pa kasi ako nagpaalam? No, why would I? This is my life, bakit ko pa kailangang ipaalam sa kaniya ang mga bagay na gusto kong gawin?

If this is just a normal day, I would let her control me again.. No, I would gladly be her doll again.

"Come on, Mommy! Pwede bang maging totoo ka naman sa mga sinasabi mo?! I'm so tired living like this... I'm so tired being your fucking doll!"

That was my last remarked before walking out from that office. Binagsak ko pa ang pintuan, I wanted mom to feel my anger. I even heard her shouting my full name. Kung dati nanginginig pa ako sa takot tuwing naririnig ang buong pangalan ko galing sa kaniya, ngayon, hindi na. Mas lalo lamang dumagdag ang galit at kagustuhan kong umalis sa bahay na ito.

That 'so called' good daughter was gone. Arielle Nastyne Louviere, finally realized what she really wanted. I finally had the guts to go against my mother's will. Pero bakit ganito? Why do I feel happy but sad at the same time? Is it normal? I do feel myself breathing pero bakit parang ang hirap.... bakit?

I can feel my eyes slowly heating up. I bit my lower lip and just went inside my room, refusing to let my tears fall down. I can't cry right now, no... I need to help myself. I rushedly put all my clothes inside the luggage. They were too many that I choose to just leave the unimportant things. Sinecure ko agad ang visa ko at ang perang matagal kong inipon. Napasapo ako sa noo ko pagkasara ng maleta. This is it, A. You can do it.

I put on a black S.Laurent leather jacket and black cap. Malamig sa labas kaya kailangan ko ito. With my luggage and a sling bag, lumabas ako sa kwarto at muling tinignan ang mini office ni mommy. It was quiet inside her office kaya bumaba nalang ako.