Intense gazing in each others eyes
It's always like this,
The same reaction was always expected
As they stand there shocked and disbelief but probably more interested.
What do they think about me now?
Would they see me differently?
Of course they would
Because they think they should.
Because of my past, present or mere future
My life is haunted and ruined,
As I tell other people my story
I make them feel disoriented.
They think they should feel sad for what happened
But no, I don't need that,
I've been strong enough to handle this for so long,
That I don't need your pity comeback.
This is my life, not yours
So no need to fear,
I can handle this by myself
I don't need your hug to feel.
To feel your discomfort will make me feel guilty
Because that wasn't my intention,
I just wanted you to understand
That this is what you're getting involved with
And I will respect your decision.
My shattered remains will be left untouched
Until I know you're the one,
So please act normal around me
For I am aware of what I have done.
There will always be that little empty hole that no one can fill
Because it represents on what I used to feel
But no one should worry because it will fade towards that dark corner
For you shall be the one that would be my future.
I may still remember my past
But that will be a memory,
For you will be there
To make me forget all my fears and put down these stupid boundaries.
