Want You Back (CHANBAEK / BAEKYEOL)

Ch.7

(b.b.h)

I walk out of the clinic with a bag with some medicine for me. I'm feeling better already honestly, I'll admit Mr. Park's company might've helped me out a little. I was surprised to see him actually waiting for me.

"You actually waited?"
"I'm a man of my word, Mr.Byun."

He opens the door for me and drives me home, we didn't really say anything to each other...that was until we arrived.

"Is this it?" He asks.
"Mhm."

There is an awkward silence. Chanyeol hasn't unlocked the door yet I feel like I shouldn't say anything of it.

"Can we talk? Not as co-workers..." Asks Chanyeol.
"As what then?"
"Ex-lovers."

I freeze after those words come out of his mouth. Did he really just say that?! I don't know if I want to have this conversation, I mean what's there to talk about? But part of me wants to stick around to see what he has to say.

"Go ahead, I'm waiting."
"Oh god...I know breaking things off was wrong of me and I should've given you some explanation rather than leaving without saying anything. But I just want to say, you didn't do anything wrong okay? You were perfect, this was all me. I hope you didn't even spend a minute blaming yourself because you didn't do anything wrong. We broke up because of me. Understood?"
"Y-Yeah okay. There's still no closure, so why did we break up?"
"That...I didn't want to either."
"Please don't tell me this is some cliché where your dad threatened to kill you or me or disown you for dating a man or something."
"N-No! Not exactly...it was my decision. No one forced me to."
"Oh....why does that make me feel worse."
"What was that?"
"Well if it was your decision then clearly I did something."
"No! I just said it had nothing to do with you!"
"Then what was the fucking reason?!" I yell.

     There's a couple seconds of silence after I yell. A long couple of seconds.

"Answer one question." My voice starts to shake, "Was there ever a moment, even a slight moment, where you regretted it?"

    Chanyeol looks down and sighs, "...No, Baekhyun."

      I look into Chanyeol's eyes for a moment and leave the car, not looking back. I pick up my phone and call the only person I can rely on. Sehun. Within 20 minutes he's outside my door, ready to support me, as usual.

"Baekhyun..." Sehun looks at me pitifully.
"Sehun-" I start to break down in his arms.

He walks me to my couch and sits next to me and wraps his arms around me.

"Tell me what happened Baek, you know more than anyone I'm a good listener."

    I try to speak but words can't come out. Am I sad? Yes, but I'll be honest these I'm more angry. I spent all that time missing him and blaming myself and he can't give me a fucking reason? Of course I'll still think it was me if I don't have a proper reason! And he really didn't regret it...what else am I supposed to think?! That fucking asshole. How did I ever waste my time and energy with someone like that? Why did I waste those tears?

I rest my head on Sehun's shoulder, "Sehun..."
He brushes my hair with his fingers comforting me, "It's okay Baek I know..."

I tell him everything that happened today, from the meeting to the clinic to the car. I could see is expression get angrier and angrier, it honestly made me pretty scared.

"I'm not letting you go back to work there Baekhyun. No way in hell. Getting that job isn't worth the pain! Not just for you but for me too."
"I know. I'll call in sick for the next few days and resign."
"You're still sick. Get in bed okay?"
"I'll call Mr. Kim first-"
"I'll take care of that. Are you hungry?"

I shake my head.

"Okay then, I'll send myself his number and talk to him for you. Are you sure you don't need anything else?"
"...Can you spend the night?" I don't want to be alone..."
"Of course I can!"

(p.c.y)

After Baekhyun storms out I stay in the car. I haven't moved since he left. I felt like I did something wrong. Was bringing it up the wrong choice or was it what I said? After I don't know how long of thinking about what just happened I see a man walk inside the building. I can't see his face clearly but he definitely looks familiar, it's probably a friend of Baekhyun's...but why is he coming now of all times? It's pretty late. I sit in the car longer and I realize I'm waiting for him to leave. But he never does. I just assume that he's another person living in the same building and I finally decide to drive home. But when I get home I find myself struggling to sleep. Baekhyun's still sick...I definitely recognize the person that went into his building...and I probably did/said something I shouldn't have. Why is my life like this? On top of that, I have a family lunch tomorrow.

   "Channie! You're home!"

        Baekhyun runs over to me for a kiss but I just dodge him.

   "A-Ah well you must be busy these days...you've been pretty distant. I miss you so much."
"Baekhyun why are we still dating?"
"W-What do you mean?"
"It's clear to me that we don't share the same feelings anymore."
"W-Well...I think I've made it pretty clear that I love you...so what are you saying?"
"I don't love you."

    He pauses and he starts to shake. God, why am I doing this? I still love him. I love him so damn much. But I don't want to be like this anymore.

   "Y-You can't be serious..."
"I am. We should end things here."

    I turn around to get whatever I have left here and he grabs my arm.

  "What happened? I just want to know-"

    I push his arm away, his knees failed him and he falls on the ground., "C-Chanyeol-"

      I get up sweating. It's happening again. That reoccurring dream. It's here to haunt me again...