Want You Back (CHANBAEK / BAEKYEOL)

Ch. 12

(p.c.y)

   I don't know how I ended up in this situation, but I got Baekhyun to sit down and talk to me, here we are sitting in his apartment, alone, face to face.

  A few moments ago

   "Mi rae I'm sorry but I'm gonna cut this date short."
  "I thought so, you lasted longer than I thought." She smiles, "Go get him."

   I run after Baekhyun, who is speed walking away from me with Jongin. He hasn't realized that I'm following him yet, what am I even doing? Why am I doing this?

  "Baekhyun!!"

   My body is moving on it's own, I have no choice but to follow it. He turns around with wide shocked eyes.

   "Let's talk. Please?"

And here we are.

  "You said you wanted to talk? At least say something." Baekhyun rolls his eyes.
"I-I...want to apologize. I know I should have done it a while ago but I never gave you the closure you needed. And it's been eating me up ever since we met again-"
"Chanyeol- or whatever I should call you- I don't need that closure anymore. I've finally moved on."
"Well...I want to tell you. I don't know why but I really want to."
"Alright then, go ahead."
"Back then...I didn't want to leave you. I really really didn't," I take a deep breath and keep my head down, "I wasn't forced to break up with you. I thought my parents supported me and were happy for me, they sure did a great job at hiding it."
"What do you mean? What are you saying?" Baekhyun asks.
"Well, I was on my way to visit my parents for lunch and I called my mom to let her know I was almost there..."

"I'm almost there mom, give me two minutes!"
"Alright honey, see you in a bit!"

"And my mom to forgot to hang up, the moment our conversation ended my  dad had walked in."

"Is Chanyeol bringing that boy again?" My father asked.
"No..."
"That's a relief. I guess I should be happy he's happy but it's quite embarrassing seeing our boy date a man."
"I know it is but what should we do? Chanyeol's happy...I can't bear taking that away from him."
"I know I know...but he will change eventually right?"
"I don't know..."

"Hearing them say that...hurt so much. I tried brushing the thought off, but knowing my parents were disapointed in me- I couldn't take it. Looking back I should've done many things different, I should've confronted my parents first, talked to you about it, or at least break it off softly. That's what I regret most. Once again..I'd like to apologize."
"Why were you so harsh though?" Baekhyun's eyes softened.
"I don't know. I guess I hoped it would get you to hate me and be less hurt. It was dumb honestly."
"Extremely dumb." Baekhyun smiles a little.
"I've been trying to ignore my attraction to men since then. But I can't do it anymore- I'm going to confront my parents, but before I do that I wanted to make sure I cleared things up with you." I sigh nervously, "I'm sorry for doing all this to you, honestly I hired you because I missed you- fuck when I saw your picture again my heart stopped- I was so happy."
"Chanyeol...can we start over?" Asked Baekhyun with hopeful eyes.
I smile, "I thought you'd never ask..."

  The next day Baekhyun showed up for work, looking happy and comfortable, which is a state I haven't seen Baekhyun in for a while. Nothing noteworthy happened other than the fact that I gave Baekhyun actual work to do. I feel relieved now that I've cleared things up with Baekhyun, and he seems very happy too. I decided to confront my parent when I get a boyfriend, and there's a boy I have my eyes on right now, even though it makes me feel a little guilty. Yes, throughout this work day I've realized my feelings for Baekhyun have returned. Quite a while ago actually, in fact I doubt my feelings ever left. I couldn't stop looking at him through my office window, it pained me to look at him before, he looked so stressed and uncomfortable, now that he's relaxed and comfortable nothing makes me happier than looking at him. His perfectly shaped lips, that he'd lick habitually, the way he'd brush his soft hair back with his fingers every now and then when he feels like he's been sitting still for too long, and his eyelashes would flutter when he gets tired while reading the papers I gave him, I noticed it all. I sound like a creep, but he's irresistible. Although it makes me feel guilty, I want him back so badly. I decide to let my confidence take over, and make a move. I open my office door and walk towards Baekhyun's desk, he quickly noticed my presence and stands up.

"Hey Baekhyun...this is totally unrelated to work but do you want to grab some coffee with me?" I ask.
"Right now? Sure."

   I hold Baekhyun's hand and he tenses up a little.

"Is this okay?" I ask.
He holds my hand tightly, "Yes...I-I mean why not?"

  I smile and walk with him to the elevators and put the building, we sit at this nearby cafe, Baekhyun looks out the window and the sunlight shines on his face highlighting his perfect features, his eyes nose and lips.

"Stop being pretty." I pout.
"What do you mean? I'm not trying to be pretty." He laughs cutely.
"That's the problem, you're pretty no matter what you do. It's driving me crazy."
  His face turns red, "Don't say stuff like that..."
"Why not?"
"You'll make my heart flutter."
"That sounds fine with me."

  I can tell he's shocked by my straightfoward-ness, his cheeks turn slightly red and he coughs and looks away. How cute.

  "Chanyeol...I thought you were a monster until what? Two days ago? It's gonna take time for me to get used to this."
"I'll need to keep complimenting you until you get used to this. Actually you shouldn't, I love seeing you like this."
Baekhyun sips his coffee and smiles, "Look at you confidently flirting with me because I forgave you."
"Hmm? Do you like it?"
"I'd be lying if I said I didn't."
"Good!" I check my watch, "Shall we get going?"