We got love...all we need

Chapter 71

Ava went to the kitchen and Connor followed "why do I feel like I've done nothing?" Connor looked at her "I mean I'm trying but I don't feel anything, that I've done anything" he sighed "when your done cleaning we can talk. I'll listen you can talk." She nodded "and I'll do it again in a few hours." He nodded "we can do it just once there. I'll be there and we can just talk. We can do that. He is letting you do that. Yes being flexible with you." She closed her eyes "am I doing something?" He kissed her head "you are being the best mom ever to the kids." He whispered "but nothing with you" she said "you're my world. You make me whole everyday." He kissed her head again "kitchen is picked up. Come on and let's go to the cafe before going to the hospital." She nodded getting her shoes back on and grabbed her bag.

They drove in silence and didn't talk until they had their food and coffee "Callen wants to be with me more and more." Connor nodded "how does that make you feel?" She shrugged thinking "he asked about you and when you would be home to play with him again." She nodded "you did hurt him and I do think it will come back off and on so I'm thinking he may need to go to consoling at some point too." She groaned "Ava, it's ok. He wants to be with you. Let him." She shook her head "none of this is ok Connor. I screwed up to the point you threaten to take the kids." He nodded "I did and still will if things get worse again but I'll be by you." She laughed a little "I want this to end. I want to be....I don't know." He took her hand "you will but we can't snap our fingers you know that." She nodded watching his fingers move over her hand "this baby is healthy if not I'm afraid of what you would do." He sat back "id have a few words with you but it would be just much fault for not helping you. I'd be angry yes, but at this point I'm angry with you a lot and that doesn't work." She looked at him "a lot? I see it but you don't act on it." Connor sighed "it doesn't work with you. It just makes it worse for me. Ava it kills me to see you in pain and not know how to help." Ava nodded "can we go? I'm done" he got a box for her and paid acknowledging that she didn't eat much wouldn't be any good.

Ava sat waiting to see Daniel while Connor called you check on the kids. She had her head in her hands with her eyes closed trying to rest. She was tired and wanted to sleep and not talk, not be shrinked, not be there. She was about asleep when she felt Connor sit down. She lend over as he wrapped his arms around her and feel somewhat asleep. He kissed her head whispering "I love you" he put his head and closed his eyes thinking of what his dad has said. Daniel came out "both asleep?" Connor shook his head "just Ava. She's not sleeping well and I was thinking." He nodded "what's going on?" Connor shook his head "have to ask her." He rubbed her arm "come on Ava. It's time to wake up" he whispered

Ava walked into the office and went to the window. "Connor isn't coming?" She asked "you and me for the moment. He thought I'd there was something you didn't want him to know..." she shook her head "it's all fine. I'm not sure what to say." He nodded "ok....what about we talk about you and Callen?" Ava looked at the cars driving by "we are ok. Did play dough with him this morning. He didn't want to leave. Guess that's good. Connor does most things and let's me do a fill in where it isn't as much." Daniel stood at the window too "how does that make you feel?" She smiled "I like it. He ask what I want to do and he does the other. He's trying to do more Athaelia than Callen so I can get a bond back with him. I get where he is coming from." "You and Connor? How is that?" He asked ava paced "we are ok. I'm not worried. We talk which is good." Ava looked at him "there is something and I don't want him to know. Not yet." He nodded "what is it?"