Flash Fictions

Drown

I need to step back. Look at it from another angle. Cause what if I was in the wrong? What if I blamed him for things I had done?

I know that's the mentality of someone who's been gaslighted, but what if I gaslighted myself? What if I made everything up and I'm the horrible one?

Enough 'what if's. What are the facts?

We met. He reached out to me and a friendship started.

We started playing a flirting game. I don't remember who started it, but it doesn't seem like something I would suggest.

I asked him out. He said yes.

Everything was fine.

He was depressed. I tried to help him find coping mechanisms.

He got angry. I shut down.

I fell into a depressive state. He claimed I didn't love him.

I couldn't handle his depression and anger. I broke up with him.

We stayed friends.

I still loved him. He started dating another.

I fell for the other. We formed a polym relationship.

Everything was fine.

Partner 2 pulled a prank on me. I left the relationship.

I calmed down. Partner 2 and I became friends again.

I wanted to join the relationship again. He said that Partner 2 didn't want that.

I left them alone. Partner 2 said he didn't know that I wanted to join again.

He and Partner 2 broke up.

I stay friends with him. He starts ignoring me.

I ask him why. He gives different excuses.

I stop talking to him. He gets mad.

I say he was toxic. He says I'm toxic.

I don't know what to believe.

His boyfriend said he thinks he's toxic. They break up.

I have a backup tiktok I watched his vids on. I didn't know he blocked me on main. He makes a book against me.

I nearly move websites because of the pressure. I stand up to him and get the book deleted.

His new boyfriend messages me. I think he's chill.

His boyfriend pretends to cheat, and calls me a pedophile and compares me to Hitler. I break down.

I ask Partner 2 to tell them I'm dead. Him and his boyfriend feel guilty about the prank.

His boyfriend starts thinking he's toxic. I listen to his boyfriend.

His boyfriend breaks up with him. We agree it was an unhealthy relationship.

His ex and I become friends.

But even after all this, I still don't know who the toxic one is.

It's been a year since we broke up, two years since we met. I should know by now!

But I don't.

Because when you're in a toxic relationship, you don't know what's up and what's down.

You just drown.