Michael still believes that it's his fault that Ashton killed himself, but he hasn't tried anything....that I know of. "Makayla, I dropped the cake that you told me to get out of the oven, sorry.", Michael said. :It's OK babe. I'll make another one.", I replied, making sure to use a soft and caring tone. He came into the living room where I was, and hugged me, although I didn't know why. "I love you babe.", he said when he stopped hugging me and then kissed the top of my head, walking over to pick up the guitar that he hadn't picked up in more than a year. "I heard this song on the radio, and I loved it, hope you will to. I've been practicing on it.", so he had been practicing, just not around me. I wonder what else he had done without me knowing. He started singing:
You know I'd fall apart without you
I don't know how you do what you do
'Cause everything that don't make sense about me
Makes sense when I'm with you
Like everything that's green, girl, I need you
But it's more than one and one makes two
Put aside the math and the logic of it
You gotta know you want it too
'Cause I wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
Never let you forget it
Yeah, I wanna make you feel wanted
Anyone can tell you you're pretty
(Yeah)
You get that all the time, I know you do
But your beauty's deeper than the makeup
And I wanna show you what I see tonight
When I wrap you up
When I kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
Never let you forget it
'Cause baby, I wanna make you feel wanted
As good as you make me feel
I wanna make you feel better
Better than your fairy tales
Better than your best dreams
You're more than everything I need
You're all I ever wanted
All I ever wanted
And I just wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
Never let you forget it
Yeah, I wanna make you feel wanted
Yeah baby, I wanna make you feel wanted
'Cause you'll always be wanted
It was my favorite Hunter Hayes song, "Wanted" "Michael, Th-that was beautiful.", I said, tears stinging my eyes. "Makayla, it wasn't that great, I know it wasn't. My voice is horrible, and I probably will never sing again, unless you absolutely want me to.", it broke my heart to hear him talk this way about himself. "Michael, your voice was perfect. You're perfect. Don't ever think otherwise.", his expression changed, but he still looked sad. "Makayla, I don't know what you see in me. I'm just a depressed, worthless, piece of crap, and you're well, you're perfect, and shouldn't be with me. You deserve better. If Ashton was still alive, then you'd probably be with him, but since he's not, you're stuck with me.", he said, bringing tears to both of our eyes. "Michael, I was with you even before Ashton died, and stop bringing him up. You'll forget about most of the pain if you stop bringing it up.", I said, remembering at that moment that I knew a Hunter Hayes song that fits this moment perfectly. I picked up the guitar and started to sing:
Crowded hallways are the loneliest places
For outcasts and rebels
Or anyone who just dares to be different
And you've been trying for so long
To find out where your place is
But in their narrow minds
There's no room for anyone who dares to do something different
Oh, but listen for a minute
Trust the one
Who's been where you are wishing all it was
Was sticks and stones
Those words cut deep but they don't mean you're all alone
And you're not invisible
Hear me out,
There's so much more to life than what you're feeling now
Someday you'll look back on all these days
And all this pain is gonna be invisible
Oh, invisible
So your confidence is quiet
To them quiet looks like weakness
But you don't have to fight it
'Cause you're strong enough to win without a war
Every heart has a rhythm
Let yours beat out so loudly
That everyone can hear it
Yeah, I promise you don't need to hide it anymore
Oh, and never be afraid of doing something different
Dare to be something more
Trust the one
Who's been where you are wishing all it was
Was sticks and stones
Yeah, the words cut deep but they don't mean you're all alone
And you're not invisible
Hear me out,
There's so much more of this life than what you're feeling now
And someday you'll look back on all these days
And all this pain is gonna be invisible
These labels that they give you
just 'cause they don't understand
If you look past this moment
You'll see you've got a friend
Waving a flag for who you are
And all you're gonna do
Yeah, so here's to you
And here's to anyone who's ever felt invisible
Yeah, and you're not invisible
Hear me out,
There's so much more to life than what you're feeling now
And someday you'll look back on all these days
And all this pain is gonna be invisible
It'll be invisible
The song came from the heart. It also has helped me through a lot in my life.
A/N- I didn't know how to end this, so here you go. Hope it was good. Both of the songs are really good and inspirational. They truly have helped me through a bunch.
