There never really was an ultimate goal
never a certain or entirely feasible idea
it was more like grasping for something you knew is just an inch away from your fingertips
it was more like stumbling in the dark for something you can never find
it was more like wishing on a star, then actually climbing up to touch one.
but this was what I liked about it
it was a taste of uncertainty,
without having to deal with the fear of complete failure
because I had already lost all sense of importance.
sure, it never made sense
but I have never viewed emotion as a thing to be made sense of.
