You Can't Fight This Alone

Chapter 6: Spider Monkey

*WARNING SELF HARM MAY BE A TRIGGER TO SOME READERS* It most likely won't its brief, sorry I had to put the warning up but on other sites where my fanfiction goes you have to add these warning! :I It doesn't appear again...I think!

*LEXI POV*

The following morning, the guys had main event tonight.

I sat alone in my bed thinking I couldn't take then emotional pain anymore; I began to scratch at my own hand making it red and sore and bleeding. I hated myself when I did this but it's the only thing that can help me.

"Lexi, Lexi babygirl can we talk?" I heard a knock at the door, it was Roman again. I still hadn't spoken to them yet, i simply didn't want to. They came in anyway, i quickly hid my hand up my sleeve, Dean looked at me with sorrow in his eyes. 

"Lexi look i'm sorry.." Dean took a step forward towards me i took one step back flinching when he went to reach out a touch my arm. 

"Lexi it's ok, i will never hurt you. I'm sorry for yelling at you" I stepped back hitting a wall i winced. 

"Dean back up your scaring her, come on." Roman and Seth walked out but before Dean left i reached for his arm, he turned round. 

"Give me a minute guys." The others nodded. 

"What is it Lexi?" i didn't say anything i just embraced him in a hug, i knew he really didn't mean to get mad at me and i know he's nothing like Tom. 

"Thank You for forgiving me lexi, now will you speak?" I shook my head, everything had just suddenly hit me i was shutting down i just need time to get over everything. I turned away shaking my head.

"Lexi, you can talk to me. I understand alot more than you think." It's true i've read his bio's on fan websites he had it rough but i just wasn't ready to talk yet. 

He took my hand, i winced as my hand was still sore from my earlier melt down, he noticed rolling up my sleeve he saw the self inflicted wounds. "Oh Lexi.." His eyes looked hurt, he took my other hand looking at the old scars running up my arms. I looked down at my feet too ashamed to look at him. 

"Kiddo don't you ever think your worthless or the need to hurt yourself, we are here for you all three of us, if you want to cry, hug, or let out anger just tell us we will help you." He embraced me into a tight hug. "Now come on Roman and Seth need to know about this." I tried to pull out of grip, i stopped dead in my tracks he simple picked me up carrying me to them, i pouted. 

"Dean what are you doing? Put her down she doesn't look happy with you..Lexi whats that?" Seth pointed to my arm. Turning my head over Deans' shoulder i couldnt bare to look at the shame in Roman's and Seth's eyes. 

Dean set me down on the couch, Roman came over looking into my eyes for approval, i nodded turning my head away. He rolled up my sleeves revealing the rest of my scars that Dean had already seen. 

"Lexi we still love you, you know that right?" Roman kissed my forehead while Seth went to find the first aid kit to find some sterlie cleaning wipes. 

Once Seth finished he gave me a smile, roughing up my air. "You'll be ok kiddo, we're here for you.By the way Dean has something to tell you." I looked towards Dean as Seth pointed to him. 

"Yeah i do, we, well me are offically adopting you today." My eyes lit up, was this true, no way this can't be happening. I jumped up from the couch in one movement laching onto him, snuggling tight into his hug. 

"I thought you would be pleased. I have to go sign a few things to make it final, but now your offically a hound." I smiled.

"Welcome to the pack little one." Roman came over I jumped onto him, he seemed supirsed. 

"Seth what have you been feeding her, she's a little spider monkey." I giggled at Roman's comment. 

"There's our Lexi." Seth came over expecting me to jump onto him. I just wiggled down and walked away. 

"Hey no love for Seth." He seemed a little hurt, but then I ran and speared him onto the couch, well sort of i think he let me take him down. 

"Oh watch out Roman this one will have your job." Seth began to tickle me, i fell off the couch frowning up at him i houfed. 

"Guys i'm going now see you lot in about two hours, see you later spider monkey." OK serousily Dean spider monkey. Geez nicknames again but i did quite like this one though.