Between Distance (Between Series #1)

LAST CHAPTER: SPECIAL CHAPTER

"Shit," tanging nasabi ko nang sinend ko ang picture. Crush na crush ko na talaga si Javier ever since. Ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng lakas ng loob gawin ito sa buong buhay ko.

Ilang oras ang inantay ko at hindi niya na ako nireplyan. I sighed, natulog na lang ako.

Seconds turned into minutes. Minutes turned into hours. Hours turned into days. Days have into weeks. And weeks turned into months. 

Still. No reply. Maybe he found out that I'm so weird because I sent a picture.

I'm not gonna lie to myself. Kaya ko yon ginawa dahil nagbabakasakali na kilala niya ako dahil kasali ako sa mga groups na hinahandle niya. Turns out, hindi niya pala ako kilala.

I sighed. Yes, I give up.

Ayaw ko na siyang kulitin. Because I thought I became a burden to him.

I persuaded him to much to the point he'll get mad.

After that, I didn't chat him again.

I don't like pushing myself for someone who doesn't know me, or even like me!

Maybe this feeling will go away.

GinoongJav

Hi, sorry if I didn't answer your chats.

I gasped in happiness.

Pero... Ayoko namang replyan agad ito. Baka, nakonsensya lang ito sa pang-snob niya sa'kin.

Isang linggo niya akong sinusuyo. I should be happy. Pero nandon pa rin yung thoughts ko na hindi niya ako magugustuhan.

I mean, look at this. 1 week pa lang at tumigil na agad siya.

I had the urge to chat him. Pero some part of my mind tells that I shouldn't do it.

Marupok ako, chinat ko.

Hindi nagtagal ay naging close na kami. We started chatting everyday.

"Dude, I might meet him." Sabi ko kay Maven na kinakabahan. I'm in Valenzuela right now.

"Bro, chill. Sabi mo nga, nasa karaoke sila. Hindi na nila iisipin pang bumaba no." He said, trying to calm me down.

Maven and I  are friends for quite some time now. Nagkakilala lang din kami sa social media. He approached me first. He's actually the first one who accepted my identity.

Later on, going to Starbucks. I heard a guy calling my name. It was creepy since Maven was the only person who knows me.

I turned around and there I saw Javier. He's with his friends. Jagger looks excited. Ysabelle and Azalea seemed shy. And Clara and Daphne were grinning like devils.

Later on I found myself talking and hanging out with them. It's not hard for me to talk to them because them, themselves seems very comfortable with me.

"Come on, Jagger! Please, anak... Mag-aral ka na lang muna. By then, makakuha ka na ng trabahong gusto mo." Pagmamakaawa sa akin ni mama.

I understand my mom. She just wanted me to focus more on my studies.

"Pero ma, kailangan natin ng pera ngayon. Ayaw niyong manghiram tayo kila tiya, ako na lang po ang gagawa nang paraan." I told her. Hindi ako tanga. 

Nakikita ko na kailangan talaga namin. This is the only way I know. I grew up being dependent on the people around me. Nakalimutan ko nang pagtiyagaan lahat nang gagawin ko. Ngayon ko lang din narealize na if you need something, work hard for it. H'wag mong iaasa sa iba.