Eternal Love

The Breakup

Gulf: Please leave me. I am begging you. Please leave.

Mew: But why???

Gulf: I really don't want this anymore. Please go.

Mew: (eyes gets moist) I didn't expect it from you. What about our promises tua eng?

Yes he still calls his Gulf tua eng. It's the name he has been calling Gulf for years now. He calls him with that name lovingly. It's very special for him. He just can't let that habit go even after things worsened between them.

Mew: Did you forget all those sweet times we spent together, all the dates we went to, all the stories we shared with each other, all the kisses I showered your whole body with...
How can you forget those tua eng? (tears starts to roll down the cheeks of that sturdy man)

-silence-

Mew: Why don't you speak tua eng? Talk with me please.

Gulf:

Mew: Ok then, I will go....
            I will go... dont worry I will go forever.
            You will never be able to see me again.
            And if thats what will make you happy, then
            that's what I will do.
            Bye tua eng...

-leaves-

As soon as Mew leaves, Gulf breaks down on the floor. He is sobbing and wailing out of pain. Nobody is there to help him now. He felt empty. He couldn't find the reason to keep on living anymore.

Gulf: I dont want to live anymore. Why should I remain alive when my heart has left me with that person! I dont deserve this life. I hurted the person the most, whom I loved the most. How can I be this selfish? I hate myself.

He screams with all his heart and howls. He keeps on crying. His thoughts were going crazy. His breathing pace increased.

Gulf: I will kill myself. (heavily breaths for few seconds) Yes I will kill myself, no need of this fucking life anymore.

He gets up and looks around the room and runs here and there madly. His mental state got disbalanced. He got a knife from the kitchen and was going to place it on his hand when he got reminded of Mew's words.

Mew: I love you tua eng. Never ever try to hurt yourself. If you do that, the one you will hurt the most will be not you, rather it will be me. If you love me then will you want to hurt me?

Gulf: I promise tirak, I will never do that. I love you so much.

Gulf used to call Mew tirak lovingly. That brought back so many memories. Gulf couldn't handle all these emotions.

The knife dropped on the floor with a loud ringing noise. It was the only sound in their house which is no more their's.

Gulf again breaks down on the floor crying harder. His condition was miserable.

Gulf: I am sorry tirak. I tried to hurt you again. I am the worst. I promise I will never think of that again.

He kept on crying and crying to such a moment he lost himself. His vision blurred and suddenly the world turned black.

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//// Note for those who doesn't know : tua eng and tirak are thai endearments that couples use to call each other.