"I know you don't really trust me... But I can keep secrets"
This out of all things is what he says to a girl crying in the passenger seat of his truck!?
What a self centered....ugh!!
"Rather not talk about it. I'm fine."
"Okay..."
And the rest of the drive was silent again.
***
I awake to the smell of..? Chocolate and oatmeal? What? That was "comfort breakfast" is what Shane called it.
Confused enough I walked to the bathroom bc... As much as I wanted to lay in bed all morning, I really had to freaking pee.
I jumped up and ran to the bathroom. I look in the mirror and I looked terrible. I had makeup everywhere and my eyes were all puffy. May I mention my hair was a mess.
I shrugged off all the memories coming back from last night... Or at least tried to.
After crying the whole way home silently to myself, I remember slowly drifting to sleep in the seat.
I remember feeling as if I was being carried... but by whom? Shane or McKarson?
Then Shane changing me into my pjs bc I was still sobbing when I ran to my room from the couch in the middle of the night.
I know I know weirddddd. But not really. We are close as ever and have lived together since I was 13 when his parents kicked him out for... Too much to explain.
And the last thing I remember was sleeping... And the horrible horrid dreams...
I walk down stairs in a slump. And I'm greeted by two much sun and Shane's embracing arms.
"Come here hun, I'm so sorry I should have said avoid... Well... I'm just sorry."
"Gah! Stop! I'm fine! It's whatever. I'm tougher than I look."
"Okay... But tell me if your ready to let it out."
"Mm"
***
As we eat breakfast wrapped in the blankets on the couch, we make a little bit of talk to keep me occupied.
"Awe shiz! I have something for you"
I looked at him confused as he gets up exposing my legs to the cold living room.
He hands me a letter with "ᗰᑕKᗩᖇᔕOᑎ♥️" scribbled cutely on the front.
"Excuse me?"
"Yes mam" he said with a smile as I walked to my room and shut the door.
I opened the note and it read:
ᗪEᗩᖇ ᑕYᑎTᕼIᗩ,
Iᗰ ᔕOᖇᖇY ᖴOᖇ ᗯᕼᗩT I ᗪIᗪ Oᖇ ᔕᗩIᗪ Oᖇ ᗯᕼᗩTEᐯEᖇ ᗰᗩᗪE YOᑌ ᑕᖇY. I ᒍᑌᔕT ᖴEEᒪ ᔕO ᗩᗯᖴᑌᒪ. IᐯE ᗯEᑎT OᐯEᖇ ᗩᑎᗪ OᐯEᖇ Iᑎ ᗰY ᕼEᗩᗪ ᗩᑎᗪ I ᑕᗩᑎT ᑌᑎᗪEᖇᔕTᗩᑎᗪ ᗯᕼᗩT I ᗪIᗪ. ᗩᒪᒪ I KᑎOᗯ Iᔕ I ᗯᗩᔕ ᖴᖇEᗩKIᑎG OᑌT, ᔕᗩᗯ YOᑌ Oᑎ TᕼE ᗷEᗩᑕᕼ, ᑕᗩᗰE ᗪOᗯᑎ ᗩᑎᗪ ᒪOOKEᗪ OᐯEᖇ ᗩᑎᗪ YOᑌ ᕼᗩᗪ TEᗩᖇᔕ ᖴᗩᒪᒪIᑎG. I ᗯᗩᑎTEᗪ TO ᗯIᑭE TᕼEᗰ ᗩᑎᗪ ᕼᑌG YOᑌ ᔕO TIGᕼT ᗩᑎᗪ ᗰᗩKE YOᑌ TEᒪᒪ ᗰE ᗯᕼᗩT ᕼᗩᑭᑭEᑎEᗪ ᔕO I ᑕOᑌᒪᗪ ᕼEᒪᑭ... ᗷᑌT I ᗯᗩᔕ TEᖇᖇIᖴIEᗪ... TᕼE ᒪIᖴE ᗯᗩᔕ ᗪᖇᗩIᑎEᗪ OᑌT Oᖴ ᗰE ᗯᕼEᑎ I ᔕᗩᗯ YOᑌ ᒪOOK ᔕO... ᕼᑌᖇT. I ᗯOᑌᒪᗪ ᒪOᐯE TO ᗷE ᕼEᖇE ᗩᑎᗪ ᒪOᐯE TO ᕼEᒪᑭ. Iᖴ YOᑌ ᑎEEᗪ ᗰE YOᑌ KᑎOᗯ ᗯᕼEᖇE TO ᑕᗩᒪᒪ.
I ᕼᗩᐯE TᕼE TOTᗩᒪ ᑕᗩᖇE KIT ᖇEᗩᗪY ᗯᕼEᑎ YOᑌ ᗩᖇE ᖇEᗩᗪY. ᗰᗩYᗷE ᑎE᙭T TIᗰE I ᔕᕼOᑌᒪᗪᑎT ᗷE ᔕO ᔕTᑌᑭIᗪ ᗩᑎᗪ ᒍᑌᔕT GO TO TᕼE ᒪIᗷᖇᗩᖇY ᖴOᖇ ᔕTᑌᗪYIᑎG. ᑕᗩᒪᒪ ᗰE? ᑭᒪEᗩᔕE. YOᑌ ᑕᗩᑎ TᖇᑌᔕT ᗰE ᗯITᕼ ᗩᑎYTᕼIᑎG. Iᑎ ᖴᗩᑕT... I ᕼᗩᐯE ᗩ ᑭᖇETTY ᗷIG ᔕEᑕᖇET Oᖴ ᗰY Oᗯᑎ...
ᑕᗩᒪᒪ ᔕOOᑎ... ᒪOᐯE, ᗰᑕKᗩᖇᔕOᑎ♥️
And with that... I was crying again. However, I also had my jacket in hand, with my keys, plus my fuzzy blue slippers.
It was time to let go. To let the day go. To cleanse my mind of the day. And to cleanse my heart of the breaking. I trusted him... I think...?
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Nothing really to say... Soooo.... Love all of yall! Hope yall enjoy it! I'm tired and mightttttt try to start a new chapter tomorrow!
XOXOXO.xx
