Making It Through Together - Hyunjin x Jeongin

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I woke up knowing my parents are fighting over some work business again. This is like an everyday routine. Wake up, do the morning routine + makeup, and eat some breakfast while listening to their shouting all along. They sometimes even blame something on me and I have no idea of what I'm being accused of. But let's put that aside for now.

Changbin Hyung walks me to school every day for 5 years in a row, he's a really nice guy who got himself a very loving boyfriend. Even though he's being ridiculous sometimes, we've been doing pretty fine together. He's basically my best friend.

He helped me with working out so I could defend myself and helped me pretty much with everything and I'm so grateful for that. He even told me that he didn't mind putting so much effort into me because he really knew how bad it was at home back then. I always take him and his boyfriend on little dates to show them how much they mean to me. I'm not always putting money as the first thing I give them to keep our friendship, but mostly love. Money is just a little thing to it.

They tell me that there's nothing wrong with being homosexual because if I'm not attracted to women, that's completely fine. And I don't have to worry about my parents' opinion about it.

I agree now, that's why I am so disappointed in my parents, that they can't love me for who I am. I won't ever change my orientation just because they don't like it. I can adopt a kid too later on and continue running our company, it's not that difficult. I really hate how strict and dumb they are sometimes. One time I was worried if they'll even let me to public school. Eventually, they did, but it was really close to homeschooling.

Don't get me wrong, I don't think it's that bad to be homeschooled, but I love attention and mainly people. I always felt left out everywhere we went so I talked to myself most of the time during my childhood. And no, I wasn't going to kindergarten as a child. It's sad but true.

I wasn't interested in girls or boys that much because I'd hear they wanted me for my looks and money. That upsets me very much. Does nobody love me except for my two friends? That's the question I've been asking myself for all over the years, but I never got the answer.

Then this new boy caught my sad eyes, he looked so independent and lonely, but never tried to make new friends. Before he even came in here, the information spread really quickly with the rumors as well. They've all just kept saying he's weird. I wondered why they said that but I decided not to ask any more questions because I wouldn't get any answers anyways.

He looked really pretty, he was tall as well and always wore really cute clothes for my taste. Whenever I could stare at him, I could not get my eyes away from him. I'm sure he knows me but is never interested in me which is different and I like it. He's been always an outsider here.

I hope we'll become friends one day, I really want to.