One Love

Chapter 9: That Feeling

The next morning I woke for school, I had a weird feeling in my stomach. It was butterflies. I went downstairs and ate breakfast. I went and took a shower then Jazlynn and I went to school. I went to the cafeteria to find Chyanna and Sam.

Chyanna: Hey Cam.

Camriya: Hey Chyanna, Hey Sam.

Sam: Hey wassup?

Camriya: So I woke up with this feeling, I had butterflies.

Chyanna: Girl you were dreaming about Justin.

I looked at her with a wierd look. Then I got a flashback. I did have a dream about Justin but why though? Chyanna looked at me and smiled, girl you got a thing for Justin just go with it let it happen. I laughed no I don't and if I did I couldn't i just can't.  Justin's a really good guy asside from all that other shit he really is a pretty good guy. Sam said. What other shit? I asked. You didn't know he deals drugs. Sam said. What the fuck? I said. Sam just sat there with a "Oh maybe i shouldn't have said that look" on his face. After that the bell rang and we went to class. The whole time I was in class I kept thinking of what Sam said. Why the hell didn't Justin atleast mention it to me.

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Work was so slow today I just wanted sleep. Part of me was so mad for Justin not telling me that he was a drug dealer. I knowIi wasn't his girlfriend but maybe after like the few dates that we went on he should have mentioned it to me. I was so bored so I decided to text my dad. He didn't answer. Why the hell didn't he answer me? He probably is doing something with his wife or something. I wanted to talk to him boecause we never really talk anymore now that he's gone and married to another girl. I decided to text Chyanna, I asked her if she wanted to hangout for a little while after I got off of work. She didn't reply for a long time. It was ten minutes until I got off of work and she said she couldn't because she had plans with Sam. I just went to my car and drove home. When I got there my mom was sleeping and Jaz texted me and told me she would be staying the night with a friend and going to school with her tomorrow. I couldn't even talk to my sister. I sat on my bed. I looked at my phone and saw Justin's number. I was hesitant but i texted him.

Camriya: Hey Justin.

Justin:Hi Camriya wow, wassup you never text me or talk to me at all for that matter.

Camriya: Shut up lol I'm sorry I don't mean to be rude I just have a lot on my mind.

Justin: I'm sorry, you wanna talk about it?

Camriya: Well I've just been stressin with school and I've been trying to call my dad but he never answers me, I wanted to hangout with Chyanna today but she is with her boyfriend.

Justin: Awe, I'm sorry babygirl, I know how that is my dad left me too. I used to always try and call him but he never answered so I just stopped trying.

Camriya: Awe, Justin. I always seem so, okay but in reality I'm not I miss my dad so much he hardly tries to call or anything, when I was little and I would cry he would always take my pain and my tears away but now I guess he does that for those other kids.

Justin: I know something that can take your problems away now...

Camriya: What's that?

Justin: Me...

When I saw that I was like what the hell? I went downstairs. I sat on the couch and watched tv about ten minutes later I heard a knock at the door. I went to open it. Justin was standing there with a look that I couldn't read on his face. He came inside and grabbed my waisted. He kissed my neck. "No Justin, I can't." I said. He shushed me and kissed my lips. The kiss was like noting I have ever felt before. I kissed him back. We did this for a while and then I remembered. I pushed him off me, "No, I can't do this with you, I'm sorry I just can't. " Camriya please." Justin said. " No why didn't you tell me you were a drug dealer?!" Camriya yelled. "I'm sorry I really was going to I promise." Justin explained. " No I just can't I can't be lied to, my dad told me he would never leave me and he did. he's gone!" I yelld, I started to cry. I fell floor. My mom came downstairs. She looked at me, kneeled and patted me. "What's wrong"? She asked. Justin stood there not knowing what to do. Hi, are you Justin? She asked. " Yes I am." Justin replied. "What's wrong with her?" "She started talking about her dad and she started crying." Justin explained. "Oh no, she gets so upset over that." My mom said. She held her and she cried more. I have an early job tomorrow sweetie, stop crying it will be okay. She said. She pointed to Justin for him to take over and she went upstairs. Justin got down on his knees and held Camriya tightlI. " I promise you it will be okay." Justin said. He lifted her up off the ground. He looked at her and her eyes were blood shot red. He wiped away a tear. "You'e so beautiful Camriya, even like this." He kissed me lightly this time I didn't pull away. We went upstairs. I layed down I still felt like I wanted to cry. Justin sat on the edge of my bed. " I just don't understand why he had to leave." I said. Justin had simpathetic look in his eyes. "Camriya, I know what you're feeling I promise you though it will be okay, please put a smile on that beautiful face." Justin said. I smiled a little. "That's a start babygirl, I like it." Justin said. I giggled. He smiled. "Well I guess I'll see you tomorrow." He started to get up and leave but I pulled him back. "No don't leave stay here and lay down with me."  He layed with me and pulled me close to him. I didn't pull away. I just went to sleep.