Diary

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I'm not sure who will even read this , but it's not a cry for help ; or me being attention seeking. I really do have a hard time with expression when it comes to feelings. But whoever reads this will be a stranger , and you read willingly.
Everytime I write a poem , or my "feelings " I will describe it later on.
This one is about how I lost my virginity and he wasn't an asshole about it , he just didn't care to mention he was a virgin too. It was not beautiful , it hurt and I wanted to sock the shit out of him because he hadn't bothered with a condom. He tried telling me he loved me , but being me , I just had to go on and tell him ,"I don't love you , you know this , I've never said it back. Why would fucking make it any different ?"
Needless to say I was called a cold heartless bitch. But it is what it is.