Diary

Explain.

This was when I was in a really low place and attempted suicide. It was when my cutting wasn't something for me to fall back on like it is now.
My sister had gotten into a fight with her now crazy psychotic as shit ex girlfriend. (Yes , she is indeed gay.)
She jumped a flight of stairs and tore her ACL & her MCL all along her leg and multiple other things in her knee. Her foot was by her face and she had to put it back in place , twice , her girlfriend and ex (Her & Her girlfriend were living with her psycho ex.) and their friends ; one boy & one girl. Had taken my sister to the hospital while they literally had everything she owned in a car with them , they left her at the hospital for 5 hours crying her eyes out.
My sister is the only person I will ever fully trust and I know I can depend upon (we'll get into that later .)
I was heartbroken when my mom and I had gotten there , it's midnight maybe a little later. No signs of any of the people she was with , she's still crying and I'm pissed and my heart aches for her , my mom who is surprisingly not drunk tried to help. A lot of things happened so my mom & I get home around 4:30am (my sister was dropped off at a hotel with her then girlfriend whom she had gotten into the fight with.)
I was crying and I had the only room downstairs , I went into my bathroom and choked down a handful of pills. Only to spend the rest of the night under the cold press of the shower puking until all I could taste was stomach acid.
I certainly did not go to school the next day.