Valorant X Reader Oneshot (EN)

(1) "Sorry" Phoenix X Reader

Credit : Official Valorant Cinematic

Warning : This contains swearing, overthinking and suicidal thoughts, this story does not have a happy ending and is Splitt in two parts!

Days off

Being a Radiant is hard and after almost two years fighting we finally got 5 days off.
So Brimstone and Breach the oldest in our group set up a good 5 days holiday. Our destination was Paris, a good opportunity to finally confess to my best friend Phoenix.
I have a crush on Phoenix since childhood and we grew up together so it wasn't that easy to hide it, but he's such a dick head he doesn't even notice that kind of stuff, so i never worried.

Phoenix and I joined this team together, we did everything together, went to Kindergarten together, to Middleschool and Highschool. We were inseparable! At least i thought so... But since we work as Agents everything changed. He started to pay more attention to Jett, a wonderful girl, she's funny, beautiful there are definitely people who simp for her, i did, too, but she's not really my type.---

I got interrupted by a loud bang against my apartment . "[Y/N] are you dead?????" i exhaled loud and annoyed before leaving my comfortable couch and opening the door for my best friend "Nix" it's his nickname "It's 10pm, bloody hell, why are you yelling that loud??" while i tried to look serious, Phoenix goofy smile made me smile back, at the end. "Listen princess! So we are flying to Paris in a few days!", "I know Phoenix, what do you want?" he walks into my apartment and nervously starts rubbing his hands. I closed the door behind him and we both sat down on my couch. "Okey before you keep on talking, do you want some tea?" he nodded and i got up and made him his favorite tea. He wants to talk about Paris? I started to blush, maybe he wants to ask me out on a date? Never!!! I know Phoenix too well he would never ask me, we are like family. And he prolly is going to reject me after i confess, but not confessing is going to make my life harder---- "[Y/N] what is taking you so god damn long!!!!" i could slap him right now. So i finished making the tea and brought it to the small table in front of my couch "You wanted to talk, Nix?" he blushed and got nervous again. "Well yeah, there is this one girl, i really like, not normal like but like like---", "You mean love?", "Yes, [Y/N], yeah that is the right word. So, uhm, i want to confess my feelings to her when we go to Paris and i want you--" he wants me to? "--be my Wingwoman! And help me confess to her!" Wow, okey, uhm, how do i react to that? "Sounds good, but who is 'she'?" i looked Phoenix directly into his eyes and he bites down on his lips and blushes more and more till he is red like a tomato. "It's Jett" i felt like i died, ten times, maybe more. Jett, of course her, i am such an idiot, of course he would fall for her, who wouldn't. It hurts, alot... "Uhm--sure, I'll help you" Phoenix face lightened up and he smiled from ear to ear, he pulled me into a hug and said " Thank u [Y/N]! I totally owe you something! Let's go eat at a Chinese restaurant after our vocation!" he let's go of the hug, drinks his tea and leaves my apartment saying a quick 'see ya' and closing the door.
Why does it hurt that much, this pain in my heart is---i can't describe it, it's like my heart squeezes into a small ball.
I knew he would never return the feelings i have for him. I knew that but i still was so selfish that i believed, deep in my heart he would love me. But he never loved me more then just a friend. A friend he forgot over these past two years.
A friend that only exists when he needs something.
'Don't mess up that pretty face Phoenix' your ass! Mess it up like my feelings that are messed up by him!
Why always me, losing my family was pain enough, but now losing my best friend and my love since childhood---why.
I pick up the cup of tea and dash it on the floor. "Fuck this! Fuck life! Don't need that bullshit! God dammit, why are you always giving me karma. Make this bullshit go away! Take me out of this shit! I don't want this anymore! It was more then enough seeing him flirt with other girls in Highschool----" i look to my window, a beautiful view. "maybe it was never my destiny to be with him" i tried to cheer up myself as somebody randomly taps my shoulder and a deep voice speaks to me "Are you okey?" in shock, i look over to the figure and relax after seeing it was Omen, him and i spent a lot of time together while Phoenix spend his time with Jett "for how long have u been watching me?" i answer him angrily while pushing his Hand of my shoulder and standing up cleaning the mess i made "well i live next door and i heard you breaking this cup, so i teleported myself next to you. You didn't noticed", "you heard me shouting all these things right?" i tried not to cry but i failed, a tear slowly rolls down my cheek. "[Y/N] it's okey" i know it is but at the same time it isn't "Omen, have you ever felt love?" he shook his head "Not that i remember, but [Y/N] you'll get over it---" i interrupt him "Can you help me get over him? I have to help him confess to Jett, i won't emotionally survive this" he nods, i thank him and we talk and i slowly fall asleep on the couch and without omen in my apartment.

Because the next day i wake up in my bed and there was no omen in my apartment anymore.

The next days went by fast, Phoenix sometimes came over and we discussed how he wants to confess to her. And finally the day came where we all met at the Airport. We made our way to our Plane. We had our private place in the Plane and i sat next to Omen who was comforting me, not like a hug or stuff, no he was comforting me by just sitting next to me. We shared these white headphones with each other and listened to relaxing music. But because each of us had one headphone in their ear i still could hear how Phoenix and Jett were talking and laughing. My heart started to hurt again, such a pain. But before i could overthink more Omen put his arm around me and kind of hugged me,which made me calmer and i fell asleep quickly.

In Paris

After a long flight we finally arrived in Paris and our Hotel. I shared a room with Jett,i mean yeah she is the crush of my best friend but i can't be mad at neither of them. So i gotta act normal and talk to her as usually. But easy to say, huh.

On our first day in Paris we did nothing special, i explored some places around us. Viper joined me later and we found a cool bar next to our hotel. "[Y/N] we could do a girls night today here at the bar, doesn't that sound good?" Viper asked me and i nodded "Okey so i'll go tell the others could you ask Jett?", "Shouldn't be a problem, gonna do that then, see you later Viper!" i smiled and our ways separated after we were at the Hotel. I made my way to mine and Jett's room and opened it, finding jett laying on the couch and thinking "Hey Wind girl, we have a girls night, later, at the bar next door, you are coming right?", she smiled at me after hearing that "Can i talk to you [Y/N]?", "Uhm yeah sure" she looked me straight in the eyes "I love Phoenix and i need your help..." OH MY GOD ARE YOU ALL KIDDING ME, WHY YOU GOTTA TELL ME THAT I--- "oh you do? So can i help somehow, windy?", "i need your help, i want to confess to him" Okey, wow.... "I am sorry---"

Author : Helloooow soooo this is the first part :3 and i am setting a cut now, sorry for pasting that late, but i was too busy the last week. But here ya goooo, see ya later!

Words : 1400
Published 19th Sep 2020, 10:40pm