ethereal || ruelvdijk

cuatro

amara

i woke up smiling remembering yesterday, it was really fun i have to admit.

i got to photography, saw ruel and went to sit in my chair next to his. i looked over to him but he had his eyes on his phone.

"ok everyone i'm adding something new to your project! me and your english teacher are going to partner up so now you guys will be writing an essay as well. now because i'm adding something new, the project will most likely be lasting a while. okay now off to work!" she finishes and i sigh. who knew there would be so much work.

"are you okay?" i ask ruel, she seemed very distant.

"i'm fine." he states making me flinch a little bit. man he was scary sometimes. i knew i should i ask him about the project but he was scaring me right now so i just stayed silent.

me
riley help

riley
what's wrong?

me
is ruel ok he seems meaner then usual today...

riley
ugh that son of a bitch
he's fine he's just a jerk

me
good to know i guess

riley
how's the project going?

me
well yesterday was fun but today i get to class and hes ignoring me
i wouldn't mind usually but the whole project is about getting to know each other so...

riley
i'll beat him up for u later

me
why thank u 😌🖐🏼

riley
ok gtg have fun 😸

me
i'll try 🙄

i look up from my phone and sigh. i think about trying to work on something without him but quite frankly i literally cannot do this project without him. he WAS the project. and was going to be a difficult one i guess.

i open my notebook and begin to write down things i knew about ruel. had to keep myself occupied one way or another.

i quickly realize how little i knew, sure we talked a lot yesterday but he was asking most of the questions. i eventually give up and the bell rings. i grab my bags and get out of there as fast as humanly possible.

*next day* (sorry)

today was incredibly shitty but it was going by fast so i was thankful for that. me and ruel didn't work on our project yesterday, he didn't talk to me all day. and today he wasn't talking to me either, did i do something wrong? ugh he was so unpredictable.

lunch had just ended and i was on my way to dance. it was thursday so tomorrow i had to perform for the whole class. i was absolutely dreading today.

i walked in a immediately felt tension in the room.

"ok girls today we're doing ballet technique! get in line!" mrs dee yells and i flinch, how  perfect, no one is in a good mood today.

it's been half an hour and i've been so off. i'm not doing anything right.

"HIGHER RELEVÉ!" she yells at me.

"you know what ms. flores, go out and take a break. come back when you're ready to focus." she says and i leave the room feeling tears spring in my eyes.

still in my point shoes i race to the bathroom tears falling from my eyes.

"amara?" i hear from a familiar voice but i don't turn around. "amara!" ruel yells but i don't stop. i feel a hand grip my wrist and i turn around. "what's wrong?" he asks still holding onto my wrist.