ethereal || ruelvdijk

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amara

it's been a week since then, me and ruel were fine. every now and then he would text me little random facts about himself. the latest one being that he absolutely hates milk.

my dad was back home and still recovering, he was getting better but was going to need physical therapy.

the weeks had been blasting by and i only had about two weeks till the dance recital. and two months until our project was due. i was spending everyday late at school working on the dance pieces.

so a lot of things in my life were going quite well, except for one.

alina james.

she was in my dance and absolutely marveled at making little comments on my body. the first few times i brushed them off but they started becoming a lot more personal. she would say things like "your thighs are weighing you down" or "she's so big maybe that's why she can't get a high releve"

she wouldn't say them directly to me but they definitely were about me. i didn't know why. what did i do to her? i didn't even talk to the girl.

ever since the comments started i've been in a bad mood that i can't seem to get out of. i'm finding myself believing what she's saying. ruels messages help, he doesn't know they do. but they do, a lot.

"you okay?" ruel asks as we walk to his car after school.

"what? oh yeah i'm fine." i lie, but i was so tired. i hadn't had a full meal in days and i hadn't gotten a full night of sleep in over 24 hours.

"ya sure?"

"fine, just tired." i say simply and give him a weak smile. i can tell he doesn't believe it but he doesn't pry any harder.

we worked on our project and i got home exhausted. i ate a few bites of my dinner and went straight to bed. i didn't dream, all i saw was black.

i woke up feeling like i hadn't slept at all. i got ready for school and said bye to my mom and dad, who was doing much better. before leaving the house i looked in the mirror and saw dark circles under my eyes. i closed my eyes and tried to forget what i saw.

i walked through the front doors of the school and bumped into someone.

"woah sorry mar!" ruel says and laughs a little. i look up and him and his smile fades slowly. "hey are you okay?" he whispers. i put on my best fake smile and nod.

"yeah all good!" he eyes me scanning my face for answers before giving up and rubbing my shoulder softly.

the day was a haze and i didnt pay attention in most of my classes, and falling asleep for a second in one. it was just before my last class, dance, and i was dreading it. nonetheless i opened the door and walked in, bracing for impact.

"woah amara you look like a zombie!" alina says and her friends laugh. she looks proud of herself relishing in the laughter that surrounded her. who was gonna tell her it was a shit joke?

i walked right past her and out my point shoes on.

the next days were the same, i wouldn't sleep, get up, go to school, not eat, get insulted, and repeat. it was draining. i could notice ruel slowly noticing something was wrong but be too scare to pry. my mom though, was the first get concerned.

"mari somethings going on...talk to me." she says and looks at me with sad eyes.

"it's nothing mom, i think it's just...my period." i lie and see her nod. "yeah it's coming up and sometimes gets me tired." i say and try to form a smile. "i'm really fine, i promise."

"okay baby." she gives in and i smile. i go to my room and lay on my bed. i was struggling, i knew it.

ruel
amara baby whats wrong?

ruel how many times do i have to tell u that i'm fine?

till i believe it.

ruel please-
i'm okay!

amara...

ruel.

do i have come over and watch you sleep?
AND eat?

no

please talk to me mar

i am, and i'm telling you that i'm okay.

you know what? fine, ok. but i'm here if you need anything.

i know.

please sleep tonight?

okay :)

a single tear left my eye, i hated lying but most of all i hated the thought of his reaction to me telling him i haven't had a full meal in days.

a/n can y'all like start commenting so i know if y'all like it or not hehe...also hope u like the chapter whhxjajdnjqjc